Hello from S Tx

[heavyduty]

I am 53yo and started my awakening last year. I suffer from cptsd from having AUDHD and many learning disabilities that were not known during my early education. After years of trying to fit my square peg into the round hole that is society. When I was a kid I had a Nancy Reagan Dare to Keep Kids off of Drugs t-shirt. They had me so scared that I would not even try cannabis because I would automatically be hooked on all kinds of terrible drugs. Fast forward 40+ years my wife who has psoriatic arthritis really badly and she tried cannabis for the first time and it was almost magical almost instant relief. She had her first knee replaced at 39yo. After seeing what it did for her it opened my mind. I was a cdl driver so I was always on random tests through the federal DOT. I was laid off 2 years ago and decided I am going to try it. My first experience woke me up. I laid back on the couch, closed my eyes and saw the most beautiful light show I couldn't have ever imagined. My thoughts were wow if this is out there what else. Of course that was a one time thing as cannabis is psychoactive and psychedelic as I learned.

Never went back to work. Just couldn't make myself live like that anymore. I changed my financial situation so we could survive and I found out later possessions and other people can never make "you" happy only you can .

Depression was getting very so severe I really did want to get off of this roller coaster of life.

Research suggested getting Ketamine therapy to help with treatment resistant depression. My first trip was better than the cannabis experience. Saw things in ways I did not know you could see. It was the most amazing thing I had ever experienced. Over the year my depression has gone almost to zero. As a matter of fact I was so good over Christmas that I honestly felt like I was in Heaven. Everything was more beautiful, I was spending time in the woods communing with nature and damn it was good. For the first time in my live I knew what being happy was. I started off Ketamine and switched to mostly spravato once insurance started cover. Nothing better than insurance paying for your trips. lol

I decided lets see what else is out there and I found DMT, shrooms and such. Tried growing shrooms twice and failed both times. Then I learned about DMT extraction so I tried 2 batches and never really made crystals like it was supposed to, I started living my life as there are no accidents, no coincidences and your spirit guides will guide you if you just listen. So I took that 3-4 months ago as it wasn't time. However I am being directed back DMT now.

I am really excited to learn from you guys and share anything I can. My research on this page starts now. See you soon

 

[blig-blug]

Welcome to the Nexus, @heavyduty. There are very knowledgeable and experienced users here in all aspects of the DMT experience, from extraction to use. So I'm sure with some help and advice from those users, you will be successful in your extractions and able to explore DMT. I'm personally exploring oral DMT (ayahuasca), it could be another aspect of DMT that you could explore, as it's very easy to make and I'm finding it to be an uniquely healing experience.

It's good to read that your life is improving. See you around!

 

[Koduckushi]

One of us!

Beautiful to hear that you're doing well and making positive moves for your life! Excited to see you around here learning more and spreading that love and growth.

 

[Pandora]

heavyduty,

Welcome to the Nexus. Always nice to see another member in their 50's here, . We are a diverse crowd but us Generation X folks (and older) are fairly well represented.

It sounds like you and your wife have been on quite a journey. I am so glad you found a solution for your depression.

Yeah growing shrooms can be tough. You should find a lot of advice here. I know there are kits out there that make it really easy if you don't want to start from a spore print.

DMT extraction is well worth the effort. My first two extractions failed so I feel you there.

There are a lot of tried and true TEK's (recipes) in the wiki link above. Here's my favorite:

Noman's DMT for the Masses TEK

It really does not matter which TEK you choose. What matters is following instructions. And take note of which TEK you are using and your steps. That way if you run into any difficulty you can come to the forum or chat and get help.

Basically if you can cook a dinner from scratch that you've never made before by following the recipe then you can extract DMT.

I do hope you will keep us posted and again welcome you.