hello

[neo-kusto]

first of all,i want to say that i am amazed of how people here helpful
i have met only 2 forums where people to tend to help,the aya forum and here
so i am really thankful to all of you

i am sorry for my english,i even will be glad if u correct me,this way i will learn how to speak properly

i am 28 years old,started my way in age of 20,i started to study energy,learned how to see AURA,learned about healing
did some courses about energy...
i even was in some sort of school with secret weapons of energy,but i didnt like it,i am a peace person,i dont like enforcement stuff,so i left,and stayed only with healing....
right now i study yoga,shamanizm,osho meditations,i like to go to spirit festivals,meditations and stuff
i am a student for computers,but i hate it,i want to live in nature,i dont like all the technology stuff,i am kind of activist.
I am vegetarian,by the way because of ayahuasca,in one trip i felt all the pain of the animals,ayahusca showed me everything behind the scenes.
my dream is living in nature,and to show to many people as much that we are most of the times are lied and abused
i want to chenge the vibration to 13:20 if you know what it is,i know some communities ,who changing the vibe,for example the Maya communities,ayahuasca communities and many more
one a 3 month i liek to do sweat lodge,to get connected to mother earth
i started with ayahuasca 2.5 years ago,i have drink many times,but now something happened,i started to afraid,it became to much to me,the trips are to intense,and too much hard to me,i had some traumas from overdoses,i was abused by aliens once..
so aya now to hard for me,also because its too long,
so i decided to try the spice,because its short,so i wont be tired to suffer...
maybe i should stop,sometimes i ask my self "why r u going there ? " i have no answer..at the beginning it cleaned me,i have got some answers,but why i continue ? i dont know....
probably the trauma preventing form me to go deeper,so i hope with spice,to get connected to hyperspace once again..
anyway my life has changed since then,i understood that what i see and feel under ayahuasca,i should strive to make here the same,
yoga is one of the tools,i was suprised to find that real yoga see visions,expand the consciousness like dmt,but it requires a looooooooooooooooot of work...
anyway i glad that i found you
good luck to all of you!

 

[xebiche]

I was going to move to Israel a few years ago. But I did not. Look, fear and DMT do not go hand in hand. Fear agrees only with matter not with energy. However, If one is a dedicated student of consciousness one can learn a lot about cognitive/spiritual processes if one were to journey whilst in a state of fear. The quote is; "You can learn a lot on a bad day."

Be LOVE right here before you go "over there". Practice LOVE here in this middle path of ours. Then you will be in agreement with your journeys. Furthermore it is NOT possible for an alien to "abuse" you. That is a flawed human interpretation. Just because something went on in one of your orifices does not constitute as abuse according to the Universe. It constitutes as intimacy, healing or both. If your interpretations remain Universal (instead of local) you will have a much cleaner comprehension of both DMT and yourself.

Look at the wording of your sentence:
"An Alien [was] abusing me"

Now change your to sentence:
"Fam was healing me."

We are all "fam".

Now get back on your horse.

 

[Enoon]

'the only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you,' [Meister Eckhart] said. 'They're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and... you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.'

(from Jacob's Ladder)

I think the same goes for the dmt experiences... if we resist the absolute surrender to the experience then we will see demons or abuse or something negative. But if we allow it to happen, if we allow ourselves to be free in this moment, I think we will be enter the pure awe of being alive... or something like that.

Welcome to the nexus.

 

[Jungleheart]

Cacti can help w trauma from aya trips. Otherwise, take a break or take lower doses. No point in torturing yourself when you can gain benefits from smaller doses. It sounds like you are on track with living a good lifestyle, and that's the most important thing.