It seems that I missed your post, it’s in a way a rather difficult question that is probably also very personal in its answering, anyway I will try to give some insight into how it works for me. For me to dive in and do something more than just undergoing I need to stretch the experience a bit so I like to add harmalas in the mix to have a little bit of time, or at times I like to add the dmt to an Aya journey.
So when diving in it feels like I’m going for a swim in a magical lake, an enormous endless lake of incredible possibilities and adventure. Then all of sudden I break the surface and feel this incredible feeling of being home, meeting my friends and family from the other side. Usually we talk on what I have been up to and then listen to what they have to say. Somehow I have built up a relationship with allot of the inhabitants of this place. Usually they invite me on some kind of adventure, or need me to observe something important. In this state I’m not too sure if I talk, think or if I am the response, the deeper you go into those states the less clear it becomes.
So on somewhat forming your own path it might help to think of it as if you’re reading a really good book. You just forget about the world and the story is just there, you are the story, that feels very similar to what a trip feels, the control is not what is in the book but you have some influence on the story you pick. So how do you jump in, are you going for an adventure or is it introspection that you’re looking for? The stage is set and the better you know yourself the better you can judge the book you’re going to read.
Within the experience I always try to be curious even when I’m not too sure what the goal is, I try to be just there, nothing more. Within that state you’re able to focus on some things, usually just that intention is enough to move in certain direction. It might not become what you’re aiming for but it will enable you to have some influence.
On a more practical level I think what really matters is doing it a lot, practice in this matter really helps, and it took me a good few years to really understand how I can be in my world. And even now I get a nice surprise every once in a while, I guess it’s part of the lure, the certain random aspects that make you keep going back.
Let me know how you think about your travels and your goals, maybe I can be more specific on how I would approach this and help you out.
Take care and thanks for bringing your post to my attention