I broke through...

[topherfoster]

Man... I thought I had hit the limit and I couldn't imagine it being any more intense than it has been. I thought since I had seen entities and completely had my world replaced that I had broke through.

Nope. I know what it means now. It was the most intense thing ever.

I completely slipped into this dream state - unconscious. I got visualizations and memories I forgot I had. Dreams I forgot I had that the geometric walls begin to take shape of. My trip even formed out this warehouse that I had a dream of. It was all over the place. Constantly shape changing, constantly morphing into another dream or object. I don't know if I saw an entity or not, but there was definitely a guide there.

I seriously lost all consciousness. I'm pretty sure you could have shaken me and I wouldn't be able to respond at all.

When I came out of it, it felt strange to come back to this world?

Do you know what I mean, I come out of this bazaar place and I'm like "oh... here is where I belong... dangit". Even though my walls were FLOWING with patterns and holographic holograms still.
I mean yeah, the world outside is amazing and all.

But it's comparing Six Flags to sitting on your couch watching tv.

Completely sweeped off my feet. Amazing.
:thumb_up:

What now?

 

[anrchy]

Ya its a pretty cool experience to all of a sudden look around and realize you are back from a dmt experience. Haha

What now? Well I hope that wasn't your goal to breakthrough.

 

[topherfoster]

I actually thought I might have peed myself too. To be honest. When I came out my entire body felt tingly and warm.

Edit: I don't know what my goal was in this. I don't know if I got what I came for, but it seems like I got a LOT just now.

 

[anrchy]

There is an endless void of wonder in there. Maybe try going in with some sort of intent. You'd be surprised the possibilities that open up sometimes when you enter that space with an idea.

 

[topherfoster]

Mind giving me an idea? I'm interested

Edit: Please

 

[anrchy]

Could be anything your interested in or something your stuck on. Like a project or a goal.

 

[topherfoster]

Could be anything your interested in or something your stuck on. Like a project or a goal.

Okay, thank you so much

Edit: After a few hours of pure meditation and clearing my mind completely in this pillow sac of mine.

I came up with the 2 most important things I wanted to figure out about myself.

1.My very bazaar love life that I'm extremely ashamed of.
2.And work, what do I want to do for a living.

So I took another trip, still in a very meditative state. Both things in mind, but even at the last second I couldn't pick which one I wanted.

Both turned out being addressed.

Even as I faded into the trip world, I instantly knew that I like my current job (I inspect pre and post foreclosed homes, it's a vulture of a job, I know).
Like? I actually believe I said out loud "I love my job, why leave it".

My trip was all the big patterns forming insides of vacant homes I inspect. Which is weird, because I've heard McKenna say when you're that far under that no objects are from this world.

Then I also figured out I live a VERY weird love life because I'm extremely lonely. I won't get into it because I'm ashamed.

But hey, it worked :?:

Next time I plan on doing something more fun, like childhood memories or old friends or something... That'll be pushed out for another week or so. I've done enough for now.

 

[Global]

The one part I'm a little confused about is when you say you "lost consciousness". When you say this do you mean you could no longer feel your body (which in most day-to-day instances goes hand in hand with "losing consciousness" ), and you were thus "out-of-body" or when you say you lost consciousness, do you mean you lost complete awareness of what was going on, and you blacked out, only to return to the real world?

 

[topherfoster]

I completely forgot I was even alive. Its almost like falling asleep, and when I'm under I remember doing spice "a long time ago". I dont feel my body at all even if I try.

Like I did it sitting up sort of once, and came-to with my head hanging down. I completely lost all contact with my body.

Its not a black out because I have the trip... Right?

 

[Global]

Ok, but so if you are experiencing anything then you haven't "lost consciousness". Your faculties may be stripped down, and you may not be in your body in the traditional sense, but if you are experiencing, you are doing so with your consciousness. I can relate to the state you were in however. Sometimes I completely forget that I even exist in the whole barrage of sensory input, and then it hits me sometime down the road..."oh yeah, I took DMT". Before that point, I'm not aware that anything is really out of the ordinary. Usually that's not the case for me, even with deep breakthroughs, but it has happened a number of times.

 

[Sweet Tea]

Still mostly white or more colors? One recently got a purple light with a warm sensation that One had to check later if One peed myself. Got a good laugh out of it. ( didn't pee)

 

[topherfoster]

Yeah still big white patterns. Its not a repeated trip. Just repeated patterns.

The best I can describe it, is like porcelain pin cushions clumped together constantly forming from within each other. Then it'll have green writing flowing on it.
First few times I did the spice I had blue, red, etc. And the rooms weren't constantly shape shifting into different things.

Like when I saw the high priestess card - I just plopped down into a thrown in front of her. Her room and pillars were perfectly identifiable. Everything was clear. Nothing changed except scrolling text that outlined the walls.

Those big white blobs I have now are very hard to keep up with and make images from. I first got them when I mixed mushies and DMT. I've had them since. Even when I break through.

I'm not complaining like when I first got them. I promise.
I've learned to appreciate whatever I get now and be thankful.

 

[Sweet Tea]

Interesting! One has never had full color but when one gets color it seems to be a specific color scheme. Acrb tan goo has been my most colorful experience.

 

[anrchy]

Awesome, I am glad you went in with some intent and came out with some answers! Very interesting that you went in with two intents. I have never done that as far as I can remember.

DMT has helped me quite a bit. I don't know how it works but when I am really needing an answer to something I usually get it.

You seem to be a natural. I have had friends go in with intent and not get anything ever.

 

[Global]

I've had some white-themed experiences that weren't of the full-blown white light variety (as well as some that were). My physical interaction with white things in hyperspace is notably different than with colored things. Colored things (most things) when I come into physical contact, there is either a physical magnetic-feeling repulsion or attraction - sometimes with a perceived heat content as well. White things on the other hand exert no forces, and contact with them is locally anesthetizing to the area in contact. Sometimes frosty snowflake patterns are part and parcel with these white things.

 

[luminance]

Very cool experience report! I'm going to have to try going in with an idea. I've only gone in waiting to see what the other side had to show me.

 

[topherfoster]

Very cool experience report! I'm going to have to try going in with an idea. I've only gone in waiting to see what the other side had to show me.

Me too.

Though I have tried to get answers before on mushrooms. Though all i was able to do was see which girl I'm in love with most. Sometimes on mushrooms I get thought loops and can't come to a single effing conclusion on whether I even want the lights on or off.

Glad the spice can answer so much for me.

 

[hiker]

What you call a loss of consciousness I call being unplugged from this existence. Your consciousness has just shifted realms so to speak.

I think it is interesting to go in looking for answers or guidance. I've never tripped looking for answers, although I feel I've benefitted from the experiences in general. I have meditated on things for some time to help bring some clarity and positive thought to issues tho. But I've also found that often it has been of more benefit to me to just meditate with out expectations. To just be and the clearer mind brings clearer focus to many things.

With dmt after both my break throughs I felt refreshed, rejuvenated, and intrigued. Perhaps I'll try a focused session.

 

[topherfoster]

I'll actually get thought loops while sober. I think too much. I'll replay the same thoughts in my head over and over again without getting anywhere. Sort of like with mushies, just not as strong.

So, I use meditation to break my sober thought loops. Come out of meditation and pick the FIRST decision that comes to mind. And immediately let it go and immerse myself in something beautiful (DMT, nature, a girl, Pontiac fieros lol).

A few things I'll do on my next journey is:
1.Record myself to make sure I'm not screaming. I do live in an apartment...
2. Trip facing something more beautiful than my wall so when I come down I see beauty not just patterned white walls.
3. Decide what to do with my car. I put so many miles on it so fast it's worth half of what I owe. But its mega mega dependable so far. But I don't like being under payments. My next trip, hopefully will decide this for me lol

 

[Sweet Tea]

In my opinion, the trip cannot decide anything for you or even answer your questions. You may see what you need to see to make a decision, but it's still your decision. Any answers have come to me without asking and the answer is almost always a reminder that all the answers are within. Going in with intentions is one thing but I wouldn't get all magic 8 ball with it lol. Not that you are, just some thoughts. Perhaps asking specific questions is beneficial but I usually get any answer I need simply by observing. I find it easy to get lost in thought so I feel the more clear my mind is the more clear the experience is. Thinking about anything but the present moment can be very distracting in this reality or hyperspace. Maybe my next experience I will ask if I should be asking... Lol