Tonight i had the most powerfull experience i ever had with LSD. I took 275 micrograms of 1P-LSD, and ate a gram of weed from a weedbuttercake.
So it starts working, and building and building. But at some point something happens.
At first it was clearly ME enjoying an acid/cannabis combo. But beng, the stuff just explodes and totally overpowers me. And it overpowers me in a brutal way. A way that renders me completely defenseless. There simply is no way fighting it. There is even no way to even THINK about fighting it. Now the acid is taking ME for a ride instead of the other way round.
It does not seem to matter whether my eyes are open or closed. At some point i am able to controll my eyes, and notice a difference between open or close. But even with open eyes, i am totally inside of the world of acid. It is as if my brain is soaked in acid and it's leaking out of my ears.
I am no longer able to communicate with the outside world. I am no longer able to reach it. I can no longer see it.
And it is now 12 hours after the acid started to work.
And i'm still not completely baseline even.
There are some scribblings laying next to my bed. I made some notes, right before it started to completely overpower me, when i was still able to write. I noted the hour, dose taken of both acid as well as cannabis, and time they where taken.
Then it becomes unreadable.
Apparently i felt the need to remind myself of what was happenning, in case i would forget what was going on.
I can exactly see the time when i knew that i was going to be obliterated.
My initial plan was to take some ketamine on the way down, but i'm still struggling a bit to get my feet back into consensus reality honestly. Maybe later today.
Right now, i don't realy have the words yet, to describe what happened. I realy feel in a way as if my mind has been taken for a very long and very fast ride, now.
If i had to describe the experience now, i can only say that it was something like "pure existance", raging. For way over 5 hours. And "existance making it's way back to consensus reality" since.
So it starts working, and building and building. But at some point something happens.
At first it was clearly ME enjoying an acid/cannabis combo. But beng, the stuff just explodes and totally overpowers me. And it overpowers me in a brutal way. A way that renders me completely defenseless. There simply is no way fighting it. There is even no way to even THINK about fighting it. Now the acid is taking ME for a ride instead of the other way round.
It does not seem to matter whether my eyes are open or closed. At some point i am able to controll my eyes, and notice a difference between open or close. But even with open eyes, i am totally inside of the world of acid. It is as if my brain is soaked in acid and it's leaking out of my ears.
I am no longer able to communicate with the outside world. I am no longer able to reach it. I can no longer see it.
And it is now 12 hours after the acid started to work.
And i'm still not completely baseline even.
There are some scribblings laying next to my bed. I made some notes, right before it started to completely overpower me, when i was still able to write. I noted the hour, dose taken of both acid as well as cannabis, and time they where taken.
Then it becomes unreadable.
Apparently i felt the need to remind myself of what was happenning, in case i would forget what was going on.
I can exactly see the time when i knew that i was going to be obliterated.
My initial plan was to take some ketamine on the way down, but i'm still struggling a bit to get my feet back into consensus reality honestly. Maybe later today.
Right now, i don't realy have the words yet, to describe what happened. I realy feel in a way as if my mind has been taken for a very long and very fast ride, now.
If i had to describe the experience now, i can only say that it was something like "pure existance", raging. For way over 5 hours. And "existance making it's way back to consensus reality" since.