introduction essay

[des]

Hello to all, I'm des and have been lurking on this site for a while now just learning and enjoying posts and discussions. I've been doing a lot of spiritual awakening the last few years and recently became compelled to extract dmt.
I put out good intentions and asked the universe if I was ready could it help me extract and feel very privileged to have had a successful outcome. I got absolutely humbled a few days ago my first time! After a few attempts I broke through and I got my ass kicked, I believed I had respect for what I was about to do but in hindsight didn't have a clue of the sheer power. I almost felt traumatised by what I experienced as opposed to what I imagined to see or feel. But today I felt ready to face whatever happens again with a healthy respect and when I broke through it was Wow oh wow amazing, absolute love from a being with tentacles with hundreds of eyes all over. I know you probably all heard or seen maybevthis description before vut it's absolutely blown my mind because after my first time I was more than nervous about going back where I went the first time. WEll I've been smiling from ear to ear for last few hours.
Felt compelled to finally join and contribute now I truly uunderstand the respect needed with this amazing molecule. Best experience of my life spiritually. Like I say I'm des and it's an absolute pleasure to meet you all.

 

[nemesauce]

Hahaha, I love your avatar! From one noob to another, welcome aboard... Sailing on the "fanta sea"

 

[Just.Ask.The.Axis]

...... WEll I've been smiling from ear to ear for last few hours.
...... Like I say I'm des and it's an absolute pleasure to meet you all.

I love that perma-smile it can give. Good to have you around!

 

[des]

Thanks for the friendly greeting guys . Last night truly was stunning, I know now why people invest in some good smoking equipment as I wasted quite a bit til I got technique right. The first time I think I was almost obsessing about breaking through that I didn't really appreciate the effects I got and really that was amazing in itself.

I definitely had breakthrough after a couple of attempts the first time but the smoke was harsh as I'd burned some of the goodies and the trip was almost dark in nature, well to my mere mortal brain anyway. It't was like I was getting my brain waves disected by almost an mantis type being. The frequency in my ears and mouth and what would've been my eyes was almost unbearable!
I remember thinking "where's the cosmic hugs then".

The Mantis then sort of projected that I'd be alright, but I said "we'll I'm not feeling alright,this is too intense". He/she then gave me almost some mind candy to watch and occupy me whilst they finished whatever was being done to me. So in hindsight it wasn't as dark as I first thought. I do feel I was humbled and almost like I was told off in a way but for my own good.

Yesterday was the complete opposite in terms of feeling, I felt like I was getting fast forwarded and the frequency I could hear was amazing and the geometric patterns were in me, around me everywhere! I was enjoying that so much I didn't realise there was something coming towards me. That's when I saw what I can only describe tentacles covered in eyes, I was getting the feeling of pure love all around me. I was going to say there was no real message but pure love is a hell of a message.

When it all started fading I could feel I was on my bed and could hear my voice saying thank you over and over again. I felt like I won the lottery! . I've got nothing but respect for those that travel the hyperspace. I can see why some would never do it again as it's the most intense experience I've had. I considered myself a bit of a veteran of otherworldly experiences consuming huge amounts of ketamine in the past In quest to future further my consciousness but that experience last night was so colorful compared to the almost detached feeling of ketamine.

I knew even though my first experience chewed me up I would be going back, but not with the same attitude. From what I gather on here that you must be prepared to accept all experiences ,as it is all for a reason . Good or not so good. Been an epic week for me my new friends! .