My Angel

[Dream2Awaken]

On my first day smoking DMT me and a few friends did around 4 or 5 trips that night. Each as spectacular and amazing as the last. I had researched it for over a year prior to this night, but with all my preparation. I still was not prepared for what took place on my second trip. All my life I had dismissed religion and almost everything to do with it, but this night wiped away decades of my misconception into religion. On my first trip, which ended up being my first breakthrough as well. I saw the blue lady, and couldn't help but get the feeling I was in the presence of something much greater then myself. In one 15 minute dream with only 30 or so seconds with the blue lady, it had begun my change of thought. My second trip followed up like a 1 2 punch that knocked out the rest of my misconception. After I had accelerated into hyperspace what followed, if I may speak honestly, brought tears to my eyes. I found myself standing in the clouds in what would best be described as heaven, or however you may see heaven depicted if one could only imagine, and I was not alone. Before me stood a woman. One whose beauty could never be matched here on Earth. She had on a elegant dress that flowed freely just as her golden hair. This bright light was set behind her and made her glow and radiate pure beauty. Her face was soft and innocent like she had experienced no pain in her time. During the entire time I was blessed to witness such divinity and beauty. The only thought that ran through my mind on an endless loop was "This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen..." I believe that day I was blessed to have an opportunity to see my angel. 2 months later a drunk friend was foolishly messing around with a handgun, and almost took my life. He had jokingly put the gun a foot away from my chest and pulled the trigger thinking it wasn't loaded. It in fact had been loaded, and had the bullet not jammed. I would be dead. At the moment I couldn't help but think that she was still there, watching over me, protecting me. Since then it still feels as if I can feel her presence. This comes as a relief to me because the worst and only bad part of the trip that night. Was that when it ended I felt like I'd never feel her again, but now I know. Whether I see her or not she is always there. My guardian. My angel. My guardian angel.

 

[Parshvik Chintan]

she resuscitates the hopeless...

 

[Tek]

Wow Dream, absolutely amazing report and utterly beautiful. I, too, have an angel or sorts that watches over me, however this being doesn't resemble your classic angelic appearance it's much more alien like but the feeling of absolute wonder in it's presence is the same as you describe above.

Something that I have often contemplated with regards to my guardian is if this being is actually a seperately existing entity or if in some strange way it is another version of myself. Let me try to explain what I mean as best I can using an analogy from the works of Robert Monroe. If you're not familiar with Bob's work, he dealt a lot with astral travel which, at least in my experiences, have close parallels with the realm we percieve as hyperspace.

When Bob first started astral traveling, he encountered a collective conciousness that he called the INSPEC (short for intelligent species). This INSPEC would guide and teach Bob on his first series of travels and Mr. Monroe often thought of them as a type of angel spirit or entity outside of himself. Eventually as Bob became more familiar with travelling on the outskirts of reality, the INSPEC told him that he would not longer be able to meet with them in the same way he had been. Bob was horrified because he felt that this advanced friend of his was abandoning him, however he couldn't see the larger picture at work.

Bob went on many other adventures and continued to grow and work in the astral realm. Eventually, he came to a point where he became the one who was guiding and helping people who crossed over into that place, and lo and behold was he surprised when one evening he encountered his PAST SELF when he first had encountered the INSPEC, only this time HE played the role of INSPEC to himself. In truth what Bob found was that it was only ever him helping himself, only from a different perspective.

I suppose my reason for replying to your thread with this that while I think it's wonderful and amazing to encounter these seemingly lofty and far advanced beings in hyperspace, I think the real perspective to have is that these beings that seem somehow seperate from us are, in a sense, what we are evolving into. So with that being true, your guardian will never leave you. Instead, you will at some point, either in this life or many lives from now (or in live already past) play the role of the female entity helping yourself in this lifetime. To close, here is a quote that sums up what I'm trying to say:

"As man is God once was, as God is man may become." — Mormon prophet Lorenzo Snow.

 

[Dream2Awaken]

Thank you for the link. I appreciate it, and I really like this song.

Thank you for the reply Tek. It is an interesting perspective that I had never thought of before and I'm glad you took the time to write it. It will give me much thought about a subject I had assumed I already worked out.

 

[tele]

Cool, thanks for sharing...



About the "friend" who "shot" you... I would stay away from that guy for good, even if he would be my own brother!:shock:

Jammed bullet...

 

[thatmentat]

In truth what Bob found was that it was only ever him helping himself, only from a different perspective.

This is eerie how well it resonates with my own experiences. On my first DMT experience through mimosahuasca, I encountered what I best described as "A friendly cabal of intelligent entities who wanted to assist me on my path."

On later experiences as I began to question and explore various boundaries of existence, multiple consciousness, parallel universes, etc. I came to understand that the Cabal, I had originally assumed to be alien assistance, was merely some other form of myself reaching out and giving myself an assisting hand. Whether it was me from alternate universes on DMT, or future representations of myself with greater control of hyperspace coming back to assist me currently.

Either way, or whatever way. I know that the gifts I got and what I have been shown, came from me. Not I, but me in some form. We make a great team me and I.

 

[tele]

In truth what Bob found was that it was only ever him helping himself, only from a different perspective.

This is eerie how well it resonates with my own experiences. On my first DMT experience through mimosahuasca, I encountered what I best described as "A friendly cabal of intelligent entities who wanted to assist me on my path."

On later experiences as I began to question and explore various boundaries of existence, multiple consciousness, parallel universes, etc. I came to understand that the Cabal, I had originally assumed to be alien assistance, was merely some other form of myself reaching out and giving myself an assisting hand. Whether it was me from alternate universes on DMT, or future representations of myself with greater control of hyperspace coming back to assist me currently.

Either way, or whatever way. I know that the gifts I got and what I have been shown, came from me. Not I, but me in some form. We make a great team me and I.

Yeah, I've always thought that DMT reveals to us another/higher version of our spirits. Someone might want to call it "oversoul" or true selves, etc.
The presence of the entities I wouldn't explain by that(well it's hard to explain anything), but it could be that when we reach this "higher frequency", we are able to see the entities.

 

[Dream2Awaken]

"About the "friend" who "shot" you... I would stay away from that guy for good, even if he would be my own brother!"

I haven't even spoken to him since that day. We were close, but his joke could have cost me my life, and anyone who plays with guns is an idiot. I have no need for idiots in my life.

I'm going to have to look up some of Bob's work because it sounds very interesting.

 

[smokerx]

"About the "friend" who "shot" you... I would stay away from that guy for good, even if he would be my own brother!"

I haven't even spoken to him since that day. We were close, but his joke could have cost me my life, and anyone who plays with guns is an idiot. I have no need for idiots in my life.

well done , no need to have people like that in your life.

thank you for sharing your experience it was nice reading I hope I will see my angel one day too

 

[Tek]

I'd specifically recommend Far Journeys as my favorite work of Monroe, followed by Ultimate Journeys. His first book just didn't give the kind of overview he provides in these other two books and he provides a lexicon of certain concepts and terminology when exploring non-physical reality.

You can find all of his works for free online via pdf. Just do a google search

 

[Dream2Awaken]

Thank you for reading it smokerx. I hope you find her too.

Oh nice Tek, thank you. I'm going to have to read up when I get a break from work