My first time ever

[SecondSight]

Hey all, I posted saying I was gonna update you all with the creation of my "machine" and other stuff but suddenly became very busy and just didn't have the time to do the updates. I am really happy to share with you all though that I have had my first experience with DMT about three weeks ago.

I sandwiched the DMT with some peppermint in my bong and I sat on my couch. My SO and some friends were there to keep me company and to make me feel at ease. I played some meditation music and turned off the lights except for one on my friend's phone that is sitting right in the middle of the floor. I am trying to regulate my breathing at this point and am giving myself a mental "pep talk" at some point I decide I am ready and I light up.

As soon as the smoke gets inside me I feel a tingle go through my entire body and I get excited. I inhale the smoke and hold it in for maybe 3-5 seconds and while i'm holding it the light coming through the phone is becoming brighter and brighter. I exhale and reach for the light that now is becoming a sort of hole that felt like either it was sucking everything in or everything was coming out of it. At this point, I am no longer anxious or scared just full of joy and peace. I take two hits as fast as I can and by the time I am taking the second hit, the floor is showing me all these Mayan inscriptions. Like the ones they'd put on giant doors or walls.

I feel like I am close to a breakthrough so I think it'd be a good idea to lay down now. I stretch my feet across the couch and try to just relax and let go. I close my eyes and instantly colors take over the black background and start forming shapes/animals/cars with colors. Colors were surrounding the blackness in a way that formed this, I smiled without thinking, I was just happy. I felt blissful and content. The only thing bothering me was that I wanted everyone in the room to be in this experience with me. It's like the DMT was telling me that they should join me! That I should tell them how amazing and wonderful this is and feels. I couldn't break through in the slightest but that's fine. This experience was amazing. It felt at times as if I could feel their consciousnesses around me, or I could feel them thinking. It was distracting but it was amazing!

Afterwards for about 15 minutes I had a big amount of euphoria and a huge amount of love for everyone. I felt so connected with everyone, I just wanted to hug them and have them experience what I had experienced.

Now I have the VG and am not sure when I'll take it again. It's been a couple weeks and I still feel like I'm processing it all. I'm thinking of doing LSD again or mushrooms if they become available. DMT is much more intense and even a small "trip" means a lot of integrating for me so I am wary of actually breakingthrough and possibly being overwhelmed and not be able to integrate or something. It's just so intense man, I go from super excited and wanting to try it again especially with the VG and then I think it's too intense and I should hardly do it and almost get afraid of it.

As always, I'll proceed with caution and only do it when I feel I am mentally and spiritually ready.

Thanks for reading!

Much Love,
-SecondSight

 

[anrchy]

Good times!

Don't let the fear control you. There is the irrational fear of things that takes hold and this is as good of time as any to learn to work through the fear. You can get to a place where it isn't so controlling it just takes patience with yourself, understanding of where the fear comes from, and the learning of how to cope.

Good luck!

 

[strtman]

Thank you for this detailed written journey. Pleasant to read.

Amazing that the DMT gave any effect only 3-5 seconds after inhaling.

Don’t be afraid. Read the signature of anrchy. Fear is the mind killer.

 

[SecondSight]

Thank you both for your replies! You are right, I should not let the fear control me but when it feels overpowering at times I may just be over thinking the DMT. I think something I can do is just low doses. 5-15mg on the VG should be good enough to get familiar with the effects of DMT and just do that until I feel I can do more. Slowly but surely as they say! Any other ideas for not giving into fear/ not letting it cloud your mind with this wonderful drug?

 

[anrchy]

That's basically what has worked for me. Do enough 15mg doses nonchalantly and it eases the pre-dose anxiety a bit. Also, roll a joint with some type of herb (weed, caapi, or lotus, ect) and a little line of dmt along it and sit back and puff on it lightly while looking at nature. In a safe place of course.

I can't speak for others but there was a point for me that I was putting too much into "respecting" the molecule that I was doing more harm than good to myself. Basically I was taking it too seriously. Have fun with it, laugh, play. We are walking talking meat bags that ingest a chemical that allows us to teleport to another dimension.

Pretty hilarious if you ask me.

 

[SecondSight]

I think I will do my first 15mg dose in a week or two. I'll update you all with how it went, if it went at all! Rolling the j sounds amazing but I want to be comfortable with the spice before I go outside with it. What you said about respecting it really resonates with me and makes me feel much much better about doing it. I think I definitely am doing more harm than good by respecting it way too much. I'm excited to do it soon!

Thank you for all your kind words and advice

Much Love,

-SecondSight

 

[anne halonium]

welcome to nexus.
good one.