my brothers (and sisters)-
this was what i was most concerned about when i made my original post. i do not in any way claim to have any mystical 'upper hand' on anyone. in truth, i have always been one to strive to see the oneness in everything. my experiences with DMT have been so profound and incredible from day one, but then- EVERYONE'S journeys have been amazing and profound from what i've read. i simply assumed mine were unique in as much as i myself am unique.
house my dearest poet brother, to immedately get to your concerns.... i have used spice ALMOST every day for the past 16 months. i have been away on holiday to thailand for a three week stint when i could not journey and as well, the past 3 months have seen me struggling with a 'mystery illness' (which turned out to be a root canal gone south
) and during those three months i refrained from going as often simply because i have felt for some time that the body is a much more effective conduit for information transfer when it is strong. i've even felt in some journeys that i was the engine of some sort of machinery i would link up with. to say i have used it every day is, in honesty, not correct. however, if i am healthy i use it daily. if i had to break it down into days i would say that i have broken through 95% of the past 16 months.
as for my sensitivity to spice....i had my first true breakthrough at 40mg. almost immediately it began to take less and less. what i have been doing for some time has been to load a good amount of changa (approx. 100mg) into my GVG and just one deep, big hit will break me completely through. on this amount in my pipe i can go deeply into hyperspace AT LEAST 5-6 times. i can't explain it, it is just how it is. i am open to DMT...i could not be more willing to be taken.
how do i access the world and the crafts? in truth, i have no idea. it made itself present to me quite a long time ago but i WILL say that it has been a most definite process that i have undergone. intital journeys were very maternal and nurturing. later journeys became deeply infused with carrier wave transmissions that would try to talk with me. entities that at one time would only present themselves in a fleeting, disappearing, unable-to-focus on way slowly allowed more attention. glyphs and writing went from frustratingly elusive to laid out for my absorption.
i started being taken on crafts very early, but it has been only recently that i have been able to be at any sort of facility. i am destroyed completely and the minute i have any awareness (though still long beyond body) i have begun to be able to present myself as a separate part of a giant oneness that is trying to awaken. that's the best way i can put it. i have been granted (or have i developed it?) the ability to make my deepest intentions clear. this has made a tremendous difference.
i'll never forget my very first breakthrough. as i was coming back and completely floored by it, i distinctly remember being told EXTREMELY CLEARLY, "remember this. you are to remember this." i can tell all of you this much- i can remember almost every detail of almost every journey i've had. even the ego deaths. i am a record keeper. an engine. a part of something.
and i KNOW for a fact that i am not the only one.
i have no interest in followers. i am here because i have experienced the most awakening process of my life and you are the family i share this impossible to describe process with. your growth is as meaningful to me as my own. i share in the hopes that you all may help me make sense of things just as i try to help any who'll listen. i will write more when i return. ms. munki and i have a date now....
just know that i make no claims to be anything other than what i am. but i do know that i have applied certain qualities that have served me to be successful in other areas of my life and have been left wondering if those particular traits aren't equally helpful in this particular work...
facing fear. going through it. surrendering. not letting pain (fear) distract from my ultimate intent. having an intent to grow and be my fullest potential......KNOWING, in my heart of hearts, that i am much more than what i see in the mirror.
please do not ever think that i am trying to separate myself from any of you. i have PM'd, worked with, talked to, embraced and just plain LOVED all of you with all my heart. i am genuine. i am simply going through something that even i am caught off-guard by.
i will share more later...
WITH THE DEEPEST LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!