So Nexians, I will start by saying I've had tremendously difficult time over the past 2 days. It all started when I brought some spice over to my buddies house. I was very hesitant about entering hyperspace (as usual). My buddy no so much. He was ready. I took a small hit from the GVG and barely lifted off. I didn't want to lift off. I was worried about something. I was uncomfortable. After inhaling the vapor, i found myself unable to express myself. I was just in the presence of my long time best friend but I couldn't talk. I felt reclusive. The next day I went home and decided to hit the GVG again. I did not blast off. Just got a head buzz going. Then it started...
This head buzz lasted way to long. I felt extremely dizzy. My thoughts were all over the place. I had difficulty concentrating. Things did not seem right. I usually come down nice after hitting the GVG but this just lasted forever. I decided to take a melatonin and call it an early day. I went to bed. I woke up later and still felt a little off. I went out to a bar with my GF. I did not speak to her the entire night at the bar. She thought I was being a bump on a log. I didnt tell her what I had done. We went home. The next day I went into work.
While at work i was walking around, and then it started. My dizziness came on. It came on so strong that I could barely walk. My perception of my physical body was off. It was difficult just to put my hands in my pocket to grab something. I couldn't think straight. I felt I was under attack by something. I decided to just let whatever was going to happen, happen and ride this dark wave out at work and hopefully it would go away. I started breathing exercises. The intensity kept getting worse. I ran outside and called my GF. I told her what I had done, and what was going on with me. I started to panic. I work in a field where I am expected to be able to perform under high stress situations with grace. There was no way I would be able to even talk to anyone. I went back inside and tried relaxing. My heart rate was 120, blood pressure 180/100. Someone saw me and i explained I was having a panic attack. I felt like I was about to enter hyperspace at work. I don't know what was going on. I started feeling like I was being pulled into a void. I felt disconnected from everyone and everything. I called my supervisor and decided to go home. My partner said I looked like hell. I left my car at work. My gf picked me up and took me home.
The dizziness was so intense. I felt incredibly awkward. I don't know whats going on. My buddy says he doesn't feel this way. I think its just me. I wish I could describe the terror and panic of what I went through. My mind is still garbled. I hope that the next time I go into work, this doesn't happened again. I cant afford to go home. I cant afford to smoalk spice anymore. If this is what its going to do to me, I have to drop it completely. I don't know whats going on. The wave i experienced was RELENTLESS! It lasted a good 5 hours. Help Nexians.
This head buzz lasted way to long. I felt extremely dizzy. My thoughts were all over the place. I had difficulty concentrating. Things did not seem right. I usually come down nice after hitting the GVG but this just lasted forever. I decided to take a melatonin and call it an early day. I went to bed. I woke up later and still felt a little off. I went out to a bar with my GF. I did not speak to her the entire night at the bar. She thought I was being a bump on a log. I didnt tell her what I had done. We went home. The next day I went into work.
While at work i was walking around, and then it started. My dizziness came on. It came on so strong that I could barely walk. My perception of my physical body was off. It was difficult just to put my hands in my pocket to grab something. I couldn't think straight. I felt I was under attack by something. I decided to just let whatever was going to happen, happen and ride this dark wave out at work and hopefully it would go away. I started breathing exercises. The intensity kept getting worse. I ran outside and called my GF. I told her what I had done, and what was going on with me. I started to panic. I work in a field where I am expected to be able to perform under high stress situations with grace. There was no way I would be able to even talk to anyone. I went back inside and tried relaxing. My heart rate was 120, blood pressure 180/100. Someone saw me and i explained I was having a panic attack. I felt like I was about to enter hyperspace at work. I don't know what was going on. I started feeling like I was being pulled into a void. I felt disconnected from everyone and everything. I called my supervisor and decided to go home. My partner said I looked like hell. I left my car at work. My gf picked me up and took me home.
The dizziness was so intense. I felt incredibly awkward. I don't know whats going on. My buddy says he doesn't feel this way. I think its just me. I wish I could describe the terror and panic of what I went through. My mind is still garbled. I hope that the next time I go into work, this doesn't happened again. I cant afford to go home. I cant afford to smoalk spice anymore. If this is what its going to do to me, I have to drop it completely. I don't know whats going on. The wave i experienced was RELENTLESS! It lasted a good 5 hours. Help Nexians.
