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Rising Star
Okay, Nutmeg is probably not the worst hallucinogen ever; I have read reports of high-dose usage of belladonna and datura, and those sound far worse. However, it is certainly the worst one I myself have ever tried - a 36 hour trip to Hell.
It was 1998, and I wanted to trip. I had heard that Nutmeg was a hallucinogen, and didn't research it enough to know that atropine-like poisoning was a possible side effect. I ground up a quarter cup of fresh seeds, and munched them down straight, chasing with water, on an empty stomach.
I expected visuals, but received none. What I did receive, however, was an expanded consciousness and a pounding pulse which probably hit tachycardia on several occasions. Normally, having an expanded consciousness counts as a good thing. Not with Nutmeg, not for me. I was a naked soul before the baleful eye of a wrathful divinity. All my flaws were exposed, all my sins, all my misdeeds, laid open in glaring technicolor, with no hope of redemption, only a never-ending condemnation, a judgment of unworthiness. There was no grace, no mercy, no love, no forgiveness, no second chances. It was a sifting of my soul, and I was found wanting. I lay naked before a never-ending firmament, with only a cold gaze of judgment for company.
I realized I was simply having a bad trip (the only one I have ever had), and lay down on my bed, put on some soothing music, and decided to ride it out. To complement the horrible psychological effects, my pulse was racing and my heart was pounding to the point where I seriously considered calling an ambulance to take me to ER. I didn't, and I lived, but I think I probably should have, considering I was probably experiencing a low level of atropine poisoning, which can be fatal. My pulse would slow for a while, then kick into gear again, and no amount of meditation or trying to talk myself down could alter the physical effects.
This went on for 36 hours - though the worst of it was over after 24. I had read it only lasted 8 to 12 hours, so that simply sucked. A word to the wise - natural is not always better. A high dose of LSD would have been so much nicer. Nutmeg made my "things you only do once" list - and caused me to expand my list of "things I'll never, ever try". Caveat Emptor!
It was 1998, and I wanted to trip. I had heard that Nutmeg was a hallucinogen, and didn't research it enough to know that atropine-like poisoning was a possible side effect. I ground up a quarter cup of fresh seeds, and munched them down straight, chasing with water, on an empty stomach.
I expected visuals, but received none. What I did receive, however, was an expanded consciousness and a pounding pulse which probably hit tachycardia on several occasions. Normally, having an expanded consciousness counts as a good thing. Not with Nutmeg, not for me. I was a naked soul before the baleful eye of a wrathful divinity. All my flaws were exposed, all my sins, all my misdeeds, laid open in glaring technicolor, with no hope of redemption, only a never-ending condemnation, a judgment of unworthiness. There was no grace, no mercy, no love, no forgiveness, no second chances. It was a sifting of my soul, and I was found wanting. I lay naked before a never-ending firmament, with only a cold gaze of judgment for company.
I realized I was simply having a bad trip (the only one I have ever had), and lay down on my bed, put on some soothing music, and decided to ride it out. To complement the horrible psychological effects, my pulse was racing and my heart was pounding to the point where I seriously considered calling an ambulance to take me to ER. I didn't, and I lived, but I think I probably should have, considering I was probably experiencing a low level of atropine poisoning, which can be fatal. My pulse would slow for a while, then kick into gear again, and no amount of meditation or trying to talk myself down could alter the physical effects.
This went on for 36 hours - though the worst of it was over after 24. I had read it only lasted 8 to 12 hours, so that simply sucked. A word to the wise - natural is not always better. A high dose of LSD would have been so much nicer. Nutmeg made my "things you only do once" list - and caused me to expand my list of "things I'll never, ever try". Caveat Emptor!