Recently in my life I have fallen into an interesting bout of being on autopilot. I have a perfect schedule down and everything seems great. Relatively few spells of nihilism have crept into my daily life lately, and it appears that my near and long term future is pretty free yet secure at the same time.
On the surface it seems like a great place to be as everything is figured out, but it feels strange that my critical thinking, meditation, and spiritual bonding sessions have almost become commonplace themselves. This would seem ideal, and in many ways it is, but I cannot shake this kind of weird, less-than-real feeling that I get sometimes as a result of being on autopilot.
What do you do in similar situations? I should preface that I also have not used any substances in a while too; I don't drink, I have not gotten high in a few weeks, and I haven't touched psychedelics in a few months as I have not necessarily felt the need to (although I plan on doing a small dose of LSD in the coming week for a nature bonding hike).
Any ideas why I have a strange feeling being on a positive type of autopilot? Is it because I might be afraid to lose this state? Have you ever felt this way?
On the surface it seems like a great place to be as everything is figured out, but it feels strange that my critical thinking, meditation, and spiritual bonding sessions have almost become commonplace themselves. This would seem ideal, and in many ways it is, but I cannot shake this kind of weird, less-than-real feeling that I get sometimes as a result of being on autopilot.
What do you do in similar situations? I should preface that I also have not used any substances in a while too; I don't drink, I have not gotten high in a few weeks, and I haven't touched psychedelics in a few months as I have not necessarily felt the need to (although I plan on doing a small dose of LSD in the coming week for a nature bonding hike).
Any ideas why I have a strange feeling being on a positive type of autopilot? Is it because I might be afraid to lose this state? Have you ever felt this way?
