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Rising Star
I'd had only one night off from a highly worthwhile visit to 2-c-e land, but got back from work last night and, at 11PM, downed a 60gm shot of redvine (reduced to a half cup of ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLY VILE crappy tasting liquid!!!) lit up with 3mg of juremajuice. Now this was my first attempt to blast off with jurema ... my previous aya blastoff was a wonderful, TRULY FEEL GOOD trippy time with an admix of 80% chacruna 20% chaliponga, in a INFINITELY tastier cup of yellow celio. So with all the tempting info out there about MHRB, and a previous experiment under my belt in which 1.5mg of jurema had no effect at all, I figured this jurema/redvine brew ought to be the real deal.
Well, it was not to be. I would not call it a bad trip by any means, and it did put me SERIOUSLY into tripland, but the underlying nausea was just too distracting for the entire 5 hr trip (which was an hour more than I'd expected). Slight nauseous hangover this morning, too, until noon. It was not a happy, fun, marvel-at-the-universe vibe, either, but more of a very neutral, deal-with-your-stuff kind of trip...no colorful OEV's like chacruna, either. I would have to compare it to going to the gym and doing an especially gruelling workout, or visisting the dentist for a successful root canal. Just stay with it, ride it, it's OK....it you HAVE to do it!
On a high point, I took advantage of the somber vibe to "look within"...believe me, when I feel that way I know exactly what to look for in the dark recesses of my ego structures .... so during the 3 hour peak that seemed like it would never end, in order to get my mind off my abdomen, I got lost in reading The "Hundred Thousand Songs of Milarepa" which really did resonate in me and still now, 23 hours later, the poetry is still ringing true. Honestly, just that reading was powerful enough under the circumstances to balance out all the other difficult aspects of the journey.
But overall it was disappointing, and I don't know if it was becasue of the jurema or the red vine. Or maybe something else, like eating some pork a few days ago. But it was enough to make me forswear both those products in activated aya for a while. Think I'll stick with yellow celio and chacruna.
Well, it was not to be. I would not call it a bad trip by any means, and it did put me SERIOUSLY into tripland, but the underlying nausea was just too distracting for the entire 5 hr trip (which was an hour more than I'd expected). Slight nauseous hangover this morning, too, until noon. It was not a happy, fun, marvel-at-the-universe vibe, either, but more of a very neutral, deal-with-your-stuff kind of trip...no colorful OEV's like chacruna, either. I would have to compare it to going to the gym and doing an especially gruelling workout, or visisting the dentist for a successful root canal. Just stay with it, ride it, it's OK....it you HAVE to do it!
On a high point, I took advantage of the somber vibe to "look within"...believe me, when I feel that way I know exactly what to look for in the dark recesses of my ego structures .... so during the 3 hour peak that seemed like it would never end, in order to get my mind off my abdomen, I got lost in reading The "Hundred Thousand Songs of Milarepa" which really did resonate in me and still now, 23 hours later, the poetry is still ringing true. Honestly, just that reading was powerful enough under the circumstances to balance out all the other difficult aspects of the journey.
But overall it was disappointing, and I don't know if it was becasue of the jurema or the red vine. Or maybe something else, like eating some pork a few days ago. But it was enough to make me forswear both those products in activated aya for a while. Think I'll stick with yellow celio and chacruna.
