My salutations.
I'm a man in early thirties. I live in Eastern Europe and my primary occupation is web-dev, I had been a co-owner of a small web-design and internet marketing company for a year now.
During my whole life I stayed away from drugs, because 'drugs are bad, mkay'. I don't smoke, but occasional drink or two is fine. I always regarded psychedelic substances as something as evil as heroin or meth and thought they only gave you euphoria and hallucinations. In other words I was one of the common folks who had little knowledge of ongoing research in this field, although medicine is a passion of mine and i often browse pubmed or medscape for interesting stuff.
Around a couple of years ago, when I was an employee of a somewhat big multinational company I started to realize that I lacked something, I wasn't feeling complete and this feeling intensified by remarks of my gf, who gave me her honest opinion. I felt myself trapped in my thought patterns and couldn't get out of them. In fact its surprising that I even felt trapped, because most people are trapped, yet they are perfectly happy about that.
A couple of years earlier than that (around 4 years ago). One of my closest friends told me about his fun shroom experiences in Netherlands. If someone else told me about that, I wouldn't have given those stories a second thought, but this friend of mine is a really smart and trustworthy guy so I started my little shroom research online. After finding that psilocybin wasn't an addictive substance and even could have some positive effects on my agitated and depressed self, I decided to give it a try having them at least for recreational purposes. I got a spore print and, surprisingly, I could grow a contam-free batch of shrooms at my first attempt.
I will skip all the trip reports, I'll just say I started to get messages, which only intensified with each trip. After two years of tripping on a one-two month basis I finally started to incorporate those messages and I'm becoming who I really am. I'm finally getting my mind back despite all the hardships I went and still going through during these two years.
Why the interest towards DMT? I guess it was Terence McKenna's bad influence and the fact that I have a high natural shroom tolerance (6 grams dry give me lvl 3 trip at the most, while people next to me are loosing their crap badly (~4lvl), just having 3,5 grams of the same batch, grown by myself). In most of the times my trips are shallow, I seem to just surf on the surface of subconscious, vaguely seeing whats below the surface. Yet even those rare messages that got through had a considerable impact on me. I do hope to have whats called a breakthrough with DMT at some point.
Just a few weeks ago I started to grow my ethnobotanical garden. Now I have several Acacia Simplex seedlings and San Pedro babies sunbathing under 80W full-spectrum led grow lamp in my office.
I'm patient and here on this forum I want to learn how to care for my seedlings and extract them in a safe way when the time comes (in around 2 years I guess).
I'm here to learn, research, catch the attitude and eventually spread the culture of using psychedelics.
I'm a man in early thirties. I live in Eastern Europe and my primary occupation is web-dev, I had been a co-owner of a small web-design and internet marketing company for a year now.
During my whole life I stayed away from drugs, because 'drugs are bad, mkay'. I don't smoke, but occasional drink or two is fine. I always regarded psychedelic substances as something as evil as heroin or meth and thought they only gave you euphoria and hallucinations. In other words I was one of the common folks who had little knowledge of ongoing research in this field, although medicine is a passion of mine and i often browse pubmed or medscape for interesting stuff.
Around a couple of years ago, when I was an employee of a somewhat big multinational company I started to realize that I lacked something, I wasn't feeling complete and this feeling intensified by remarks of my gf, who gave me her honest opinion. I felt myself trapped in my thought patterns and couldn't get out of them. In fact its surprising that I even felt trapped, because most people are trapped, yet they are perfectly happy about that.
A couple of years earlier than that (around 4 years ago). One of my closest friends told me about his fun shroom experiences in Netherlands. If someone else told me about that, I wouldn't have given those stories a second thought, but this friend of mine is a really smart and trustworthy guy so I started my little shroom research online. After finding that psilocybin wasn't an addictive substance and even could have some positive effects on my agitated and depressed self, I decided to give it a try having them at least for recreational purposes. I got a spore print and, surprisingly, I could grow a contam-free batch of shrooms at my first attempt.
I will skip all the trip reports, I'll just say I started to get messages, which only intensified with each trip. After two years of tripping on a one-two month basis I finally started to incorporate those messages and I'm becoming who I really am. I'm finally getting my mind back despite all the hardships I went and still going through during these two years.
Why the interest towards DMT? I guess it was Terence McKenna's bad influence and the fact that I have a high natural shroom tolerance (6 grams dry give me lvl 3 trip at the most, while people next to me are loosing their crap badly (~4lvl), just having 3,5 grams of the same batch, grown by myself). In most of the times my trips are shallow, I seem to just surf on the surface of subconscious, vaguely seeing whats below the surface. Yet even those rare messages that got through had a considerable impact on me. I do hope to have whats called a breakthrough with DMT at some point.
Just a few weeks ago I started to grow my ethnobotanical garden. Now I have several Acacia Simplex seedlings and San Pedro babies sunbathing under 80W full-spectrum led grow lamp in my office.
I'm patient and here on this forum I want to learn how to care for my seedlings and extract them in a safe way when the time comes (in around 2 years I guess).
I'm here to learn, research, catch the attitude and eventually spread the culture of using psychedelics.
I can relate to your experience, I come from a similar background.