Exp. Report So I went deep last Tuesday.

[WalterChronkite]

I offer this report as more of a teaching moment of what not to do.

I was in quite a mood. I was annoyed that all I had been seeing was shiny beautiful things. No entities, nothing I could attach significant meaning to. I decided I was going to try to find the management. Ask a few questions, get a little understanding.

My significant other had an event that evening, beers were drank, more beers were drank after. Maybe some weed too, I don't recall.

I then proceeded to attempt to breakthrough somewhere in the neighborhood of 5-6 times back to back. I made it very clear I was going to keep coming until I got some answers.

Shockingly enough, I didn't get any answers . All in all, nothing bad happened outside of lightly melting my brain for a few hours. I felt the love, saw the beauty. Actually searched through a void space for a bit. All of it was positive. A lot of Aztec/Mayan vibes. I remember audibly saying "I'm going to keep coming and asking". In retrospect I was being a real dick. Glad they kept it cool and chill for me (or I did?).

I wasn't fully humbled until Thursday morning, when I still felt like I had a pinky toe in the void. Wednesday was a struggle (more from the beers, but the DMT definitely added a complexity). I didn't feel fully (mostly?) back to normal until Thursday evening. Not to say it was all bad, my intuition and ideas while being tethered like that were greatly enhanced in my mind. But it was also scary, because I felt like I had really walked the tight rope. I don't know if using DMT in such a manner can cause permanent damage, but if so I felt like I was pushing it.

I could talk a lot more about how the lessons and learnings come after the DMT use, not necessarily during it. At least for me, I go through layers and layers of introspection afterword for whatever reason. I guess that's "integration". But I didn't really see it that way. I kind of assumed I would have to integrate what I saw. Which is true, but that's only like 20% for me. In the aftermath it feels like... I don't know the best way to describe it. Like normally the windows in your house are closed, but post DMT, the windows are open. This makes it much easier to hear the whispers from those who are keeping an eye on us.

Anyways, probably don't be like me (I probably won't be so reckless, but I don't have any regrets). I'm sure in 6 months I'm gonna smoke and travel to the top of the mountain and God's gonna be like "So I heard you wanted to talk to management." He probably won't be in a good mood either.

 

[northape]

I feel DMT demands respect. It's not like it's not going to work after a few beers, but you won't get much benefit out of it. Your story is a mild version of what could have happened. You seem to have gotten the lesson. The ritual around working with these plants is there for a reason. Don't write it off as simple pre-modern superstition. I'd be very careful with this medicine. We're playing with fire here. It could revolutionize our lives or burn them to the ground. I'd say this work is about presence or awareness. I try to go when I feel stable and clear-headed. The Universe tends to appreciate it and answer accordingly to the initial intent.

Stay safe

 

[WalterChronkite]

I feel DMT demands respect. It's not like it's not going to work after a few beers, but you won't get much benefit out of it. Your story is a mild version of what could have happened. You seem to have gotten the lesson. The ritual around working with these plants is there for a reason. Don't write it off as simple pre-modern superstition. I'd be very careful with this medicine. We're playing with fire here. It could revolutionize our lives or burn them to the ground. I'd say this work is about presence or awareness. I try to go when I feel stable and clear-headed. The Universe tends to appreciate it and answer accordingly to the initial intent.

Stay safe

I mostly agree. I took it way too far that evening with one caveat. With my particular neurodivergence (ADHD + probable mild ASD), a couple of beers isn't really like getting drunk. It's necessary to quiet the background noise. Maybe someday I'll be able to work past that, but more than likely I'm in a world that wasn't designed for me. I'm an elder millennial, so I've been puppeting this meat suit for awhile. Trying to be "normal" or do things the normal way has never really worked for me. I do need to work on my ritualization though.

 

[northape]

I mostly agree. I took it way too far that evening with one caveat. With my particular neurodivergence (ADHD + probable mild ASD), a couple of beers isn't really like getting drunk. It's necessary to quiet the background noise. Maybe someday I'll be able to work past that, but more than likely I'm in a world that wasn't designed for me. I'm an elder millennial, so I've been puppeting this meat suit for awhile. Trying to be "normal" or do things the normal way has never really worked for me. I do need to work on my ritualization though.

Oh, being normal is quite far from the theme of this forum. You can feel at home here
No judgments from me either, just some personal reflections.
Thank you for sharing, and much love.