Some new Years Ayahuasca and 25:1 Caapi Extract.

[Dimethyltryptoman]

hello there folks. It's New Years.
Not being someone who finds joy in the consumption of alcohol.
I was thinking about preforming some ayahuasca tonight using 25:1 caapi extract.
4 grams of this extract equals 100grams of Caapi Vine.

I don't think it gets much more traditional than that.

Anyways... It's been about 3 years since i have last done ayahuasca.
My life while it has gotten better. Has gotten worse in a lot of ways.
I've cured myself of most if not all drug addictions except for caffine and marijuana.
I've developed a stable long lasting relationship with someone.
But when you feel like, sometimes it is the very nature of humanity itself that is reaching out and trying to excise you into a state of run down torment, it becomes fruitful, to shake the shit from the trees. Try to learn to develop a new Modality or pattern.


I'm a guy, and my girlfriend and I almost got raped this summer by this crazy asshole.
When we went out west to go to a music festival. We asked this guy if he could drive us out of the music festival so we could catch our bus to the next music festival..
Long story short he ended up almost raping us.
Sometimes, lately especially since we have gotten him in trouble with all of the proper authorities, i.e. his wife, and the company he worked for where he was responsible for looking after people who got to high. This clown, who carries with him the name Shaman.
seems to be throwing alot of negative energy our way. We can tell.

Don't worry, i ordered this Caapi extract from Europe.
Not from the one whose energies are bothering us.

I just want these bonds of torment to be broken. For it for be a night of solace and serene beauty encompassed with the divine. I don't want to relive negativity as my whole life has seemed negative. Mother Ayahuasca knows. I've done her in the comfort of my own living room before.

My whole life has been a sequential aberration
Adopted.
Abused
MalAligned from the very beginning it has felt like. I've done a lot of work trying to get more into the light. Ultimately it feels like there are aspects of the world which reach out and try to suspend me in the animation of the oubourous.

I just hope that this doesn't turn into one of those past life hardship kind of events where I will be forced to relive misdeeds carried out in other existences, then be forced to drink another cup to have to deal with this lives. I don't have enough for that.

Which is making me kind of want to wait... my first ayahuasca experience i managed to gulp down 5 cups over a 2 day period. I feel like this being the cusp of something in the world and humanity being that it is the turning of the New Year. Ayahuasca would be a revealing goddess for the things to come. Which quite frankly i think i need.


Ultimately. I am just posting this up... As kind of what i wanna say to ayahuasca.
Caapi extract is sitting right in front of me.

So, you guys just know you are in my prayers all day today. As I hope we are in yours.

I'm excited to come out with a new head.

Also are there any symbols, talismans, incense, or tools that any of you guys use, when preparing or looking forward to embarking on an adventure into the realms of earthly delights?

 

[Elpo]

I am sorry to hear what you went through. Nobody should be put in that kind of position unwillingly. Hopefully you and your gf are doing fine and will get over it unharmed.

Don't try to force the experience in a certain direction though, ayahuasca will give you the experience you need, not the one you want.

As for talismans, I always keep something emotionally valuable to me with me. It can be useful during difficult moments to ground you.
It can be a book, a stone an instrument anything that seems to hold some kind of power.

Safe journeys and a trippy new year

 

[Purges]

Hello there friend, it sounds like you have been through the wringer. This 'Shaman' character sounds like a piece of work, too. I feel it won't be long before his ways catch up with him. The mind boggles when creeps like this call themselves names like this. Maybe 'Brujo' would be more fitting (I could think of a few more rather blunt names too ) I can't advise you on whether or not to dose, you need to ask yourself. Sometimes healing can be rough, so that should be prepared for.

What ever you decide, I hope that 2014 is a happy and prosperous year for you, and everyone else here at the Nexus.