something strange

[still seeking]

the other night i was rude to people in chat.
i was stoned and drunk,no excuse i know,but there you have it.
my ego was getting the better of me and it did.
so the mods decided to ban me.
good decsion.
that is what i needed to reflect.
i apologise to everyone involved,to the members and the mods.
my paranoia got the better of me and...well what can i say ...i lost it.

something strange happened right after the ban.
i toke a toke of dmt.
it felt like a band wrapped around my head.
then access to dmt world was denied.
i felt it shut down.

i felt as if i had been denied access and missed out on something special.
but i also felt that a certain person had control over this realm.
and was teaching me a lesson.

it was a very strange experience,when the lights shut down,but your still enhanced.

thanks nexus for having me.
i still have a lot to learn.

 

[Jarl Von Hoother]

Yes you do have a lot to learn, my friend. A whole life time so regret none of it, that you may reap the pride of your folly and carry it like armor into your deepest abyss...I guess the elves will meet you there half way?

you may have been banned but, I don't deny you. Remember it's your birthrite to visit hyperspace no matter who you are. Whoever you are, you're a good person and your apology will be read

next time you get high instead of like forum lurking which may or may not get you into trouble if things get heated enough

smoke ganja, or whatever and just meditate on the ones you love.

That's it. Thats a one way ticket to hyperspace- or heaven... which is your true self. and you don't need DMT for that, you need simply to remember who you are and

the answer to that is love... grow alittle bigger that way, Everyday. All the DMT elves want you to ever do is embrace compassion. everyday.

DMT showed me the world made known by mind is like a child's innerworking of the imagination. The very fabric of that which can be known can have a connection soley based on love, compassion, and kindness. We all must grow in this ONLY way to realise our greater potential, and yet as the weary traveler comes to the top of a peak- it is but another mountain.

Be who you are. thoughtfully. and Aware
dear friend