DMiTria
I Think, Therefore I Am Not. Only When The Mind is
Hello Nexians,
I just had an experience with Aya that was extremely challenging. I have a shaman in the Amazon that sends me bottles. This time around I asked him if he could send me a strong batch. He was more than welcome to do so and I was grateful. This brew was like syrup, really thick stuff. He told me to just drink til' my body resisted. I wanted to go far this time so I poured a normal dose of what I usually do for the milder bottle:shock:. I had no idea what I was in for. I waited for the purge like usual, it's weird that I feel I'm missing out if I don't purge its become less and less the more times I Journey, but I did this time. As I was purging by the fire this lady yells out her window, "I'm calling the cops, it's not normal for someone to puke like that", I was laughing in my head thinking, how can someone say what's normal on how someone pukes. Anyways, I was done purging at this point and did a brief apologize, because I almost wasn't capable of communication.
So I went an laid down in the tent as she came on hard, really hard. It got so intense I didn't know what reality was anymore. I was trying to hold on to anything that even represented material thought. I was fighting it, which I know is the worst way to go about this but it was just so extremely intense like nothing I have ever fathomed before. It was like a high vibration penetrating my mind, body, and spirit forcing me to surrender to her power, which I did. I remember meeting this eagle like spirit not knowing if it was her or not, It seemed that she wasn't quiet there, or maybe she was but I could think at all to even notice. It was like this for maybe an hour an a half, I couldn't tell it was endless and so fast that I was holding on for dear life. I called to my friend who has been doing this for 10+ years just to have that knowledge he was still there for what ever comfort that instilled in me, he was. I was trying not to purge because of the neighbors threat so I held it back but I couldn't anymore, so I stuck my head inside the bucket and put a pillow around the open spots to muffle the sound. I made the puking face but nothing physical came out and no sound either but it felt wonderful, nonetheless.
After that she eased up a little or I just got used to it but now she was just giving me gift after gift and a lot of Love. I felt like a infant child in her presence. Once again I was stuck in amazement, biting my lip and gnawing on my thumb at the beauty. At this point my eyes being closed or open made no difference I was gone into infinite eternity. For the rest of my Journey I was just bathing in infinite unconditional Love humming this Icaros that came to me and later figured out it is well known among the Amazonian tribes as a "Ayahuasca Blessing" song.
Thank You For Reading my Post much Love to you All.
I found the Icaros on youtube after some searching. Here it is enjoy.
P.S. The next day I had a pretty bad headache but from what I've read it's common on high dose Journey's, totally worth it.
I just had an experience with Aya that was extremely challenging. I have a shaman in the Amazon that sends me bottles. This time around I asked him if he could send me a strong batch. He was more than welcome to do so and I was grateful. This brew was like syrup, really thick stuff. He told me to just drink til' my body resisted. I wanted to go far this time so I poured a normal dose of what I usually do for the milder bottle:shock:. I had no idea what I was in for. I waited for the purge like usual, it's weird that I feel I'm missing out if I don't purge its become less and less the more times I Journey, but I did this time. As I was purging by the fire this lady yells out her window, "I'm calling the cops, it's not normal for someone to puke like that", I was laughing in my head thinking, how can someone say what's normal on how someone pukes. Anyways, I was done purging at this point and did a brief apologize, because I almost wasn't capable of communication.
So I went an laid down in the tent as she came on hard, really hard. It got so intense I didn't know what reality was anymore. I was trying to hold on to anything that even represented material thought. I was fighting it, which I know is the worst way to go about this but it was just so extremely intense like nothing I have ever fathomed before. It was like a high vibration penetrating my mind, body, and spirit forcing me to surrender to her power, which I did. I remember meeting this eagle like spirit not knowing if it was her or not, It seemed that she wasn't quiet there, or maybe she was but I could think at all to even notice. It was like this for maybe an hour an a half, I couldn't tell it was endless and so fast that I was holding on for dear life. I called to my friend who has been doing this for 10+ years just to have that knowledge he was still there for what ever comfort that instilled in me, he was. I was trying not to purge because of the neighbors threat so I held it back but I couldn't anymore, so I stuck my head inside the bucket and put a pillow around the open spots to muffle the sound. I made the puking face but nothing physical came out and no sound either but it felt wonderful, nonetheless.
After that she eased up a little or I just got used to it but now she was just giving me gift after gift and a lot of Love. I felt like a infant child in her presence. Once again I was stuck in amazement, biting my lip and gnawing on my thumb at the beauty. At this point my eyes being closed or open made no difference I was gone into infinite eternity. For the rest of my Journey I was just bathing in infinite unconditional Love humming this Icaros that came to me and later figured out it is well known among the Amazonian tribes as a "Ayahuasca Blessing" song.
Thank You For Reading my Post much Love to you All.
I found the Icaros on youtube after some searching. Here it is enjoy.
P.S. The next day I had a pretty bad headache but from what I've read it's common on high dose Journey's, totally worth it.
