this pritty sums it up... if anyone is still in denial that is...:d
2bh with you all i havnt broken through yet and reading this makes me feel like i dont need to but i still feel im being pushed from something that wants me to know and see it for myself - or atleast remember the place between lives....
i have a drug problem... cannabis dependency and i know a breakthrough will help me out of the mind rut i have gotten myself into... i was pritty much invited into doing more from the female guide that dances in that place lastnight but i just havnt got the courage on what and how it may change me.... i remember 12 grams of mexican cubensis at 17 (silly age, correct) like yesterday that changed me completely (for the good).. now at 29 i feel ive slipt back into to old habbits eating my life and cash away... i have around 80mgs of dmt left and my heart is calling but my mind is scared of how profound it is . i know its right to do it but i dont feel ready yet despite needing too know it ,see it and remember it... does anyone understand?
i want to change my life around urgently and havnt got the balls to load more than what ive been smoking in the last month of it finding me.. doses more than enough to connect ancient dots and have light mystical voyages but nothing with lasting changes like a mushroom session ...
im afraid that i may not get to the place this person did and end up with something else... is a brake through always so caring and forgiving as this person has put it..
ive experience female entity and my voyages have had nothing sinister as i have held respect for it unlike cannabis.. but im just not sure .
does the soul leave the body always like this person has discussed in a dmt/death experience.. im not a bad person so i havnt the fear of getting something nasty but i dont want to be confronted with something,an entity that has other ideas and agenders that will just not help me once back...
