Too afraid

[SmoovPnCali]

I am by no means ultra experienced with the Molecule. I have had a handful of breakthroughs. Like you, I was very fearful at first. Before I had any experience at all with the molecule, I read lots of other peoples reports and kept hearing words like fear, anxiety, death, etc., and that is what caused my fear.

I since learned that the Molecule is NOT to be feared, it has no anamosity towards you. It doesn't want you to fear it. It is apart of YOU. BUT, it does demand that you respect it. Fear is not respect.

One thing that helped me take the first "leap of the cliff" was knowing that nobody has ever died from it. I had been taking smaller doses and enjoyed the feeling of relaxation and the patterens and colors. It was as though the Molecule was stroking my head saying, "See, it's ok. I love you..."

Then I decided it was time. I had a friend with me just as a back-up plan. If anything went wrong, he would make sure I got help. That was conforting. My first breakthrough, I encountered Elves. It was shocking to see them, but by no means scary. They were very friendly and comical.

Since then I have encountered mostly Ancient Egyptian Gods and my last time I encountered the Mayan God Kukulkan. He is a Serpent God so that was pretty shocking, but once again, not scary. Not once has any Entitiy I have encountered tried to do me any harm.

Keep that in mind. At the momment of truth, just know the Molecule means you no harm and trust the experrience. And maybe have a trusted friend with you for support. If you still can't do it....maybe it really isn't calling to you after all.

Good luck!

 

[d*l*b]

Feeling afraid is no issue. It not being the correct time to navigate hyperspace is no issue. If it is time you will do it. If it isn’t you won’t.

DMT is a heavy reality-annihilating tool it is very wise to be wary. Whilst you may be told “But once you get there it's one big cosmic party”, we must remember that although it can be also be like spending an infinity in an endless void (amongst many other fantastical settings and situations)!

I believe trepidation is healthy. If it is right for you one day the pipe will be moving from your lips, being placed in the table and you will be navigating the multiverse or something. After several hundred journeys I feel even more intensely wary. It can take me weeks to hit a loaded pipe. I often take a hit of the GVG, hold it in and think “I really shouldn’t experience this” and let half the vapours out. This is not a bad thing, in another time and place I am travelling every day! Right time, right situation, we will do whatever it is we’re supposed to be doing.

 

[Jarl Von Hoother]

You seem nervous that's completely normal. DMT is an experience that ranks above the most bizarre encounters compared to our normal undisturbed complacence some call wisdom or ego. indeed our normal perception of reality are like taking baby steps whereas DMT turns us into olympic medal winning sprint runners... so it's very different

MY ADVICE IS...


Make some Cappi tea... it's maoi's will warm you relaxing you while turning on your brain's very own psychedelic arsenal of endogenous bet-carbolines to prepare you slowly and cooly to the point that you'll WANT TO and WILL break through weather you think that you can't or wont- there are NO unpleasant feelings with Cappi tea.

you'll break through, the DMT will run it's course and above all you'll learn many things and find that you can learn things in new ways...

Read up on some info about B. Cappi first- don't use more than 50mg or less than 45mg of 'spice' You'll be glad you tried it... We've all gone over the ledge. Listen learn, and don't be afraid - even past the thickest ugliest clouds is little bit of sun shine

I recommend Ayahuasca if you want a more spiritual experience to tear down some of your walls. its quite beautiful outside to take Ayahuasca especially

 

[RayTracer]

Im always trepidatious before I hit the spice. A healthy dose of reverence is a good thing. I'm convinced my amygdalla is releasing adrenaline because my ego knows its about to get Gallaghered by the molecule.