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Tortured by knower voices (not a joke)

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kaleb6622

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Hi,

The following is not a joke.

It is very much a life and death issue. I’m sorry if the post gets a bit too open, please don’t delete it for this reason. Please understand that my very life is on the line and I need serious advice and help from the psychedelic community.

I started my psychedelic liberation journey 7 years ago and it was going just peaches for some months with the help of the standard programme used for these purposes. At this point I got in touch with someone in writing, someone I asked for some innocent advice and offered my sincere admiration. Now from this moment on, my life took a turn for the absolute abhorrent worst imaginable scenario. This person and then some others have entered my mind and been wreaking havoc for the past 6+ years. I should mention that I was hospitalised in the meantime and diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic. The doctors say the voices are my subconscious but I think otherwise. But anyway, these voices inside my head have been torturing me in the worst imaginable ways for all this time. They somehow manage to block out the effects of all drugs, psychedelic or otherwise, so I’m stumped in trying to continue my liberation journey. When I ask these torturers why they have descended on me, they offer only poor lies and outright refusal to reveal the true reasons. I have been in very poor states as result of their actions inside my mind, I would end up in hospital, tied to the bed. They have destroyed my life thoroughly in all these years, I believe they can affect people around me in similar fashion to which they can affect me. And they do so shamelessly. They have managed to destroy most of my relationships and I am now facing a real prospect of ending up on the street homeless and as a beggar as they get me fired from all my jobs. So many jobs, they torture me badly there, but I try to hide it as much as it’s humanly possible, but then they make me fall asleep, no matter how well rested and full of coffee I am, my head just gets woozy and I find it impossible not to close my eyes. So they have cut out my income.

What I would like to kindly ask the psychedelic community is referral to some sort of authority that might stop these psychopaths? To whom are knowers responsible? Where can I report this? Who is the so called police in this world? I am sorry if this is a stupid or nonsensical question, my knowledge of this world is limited to right before seership.

I would like to ask the moderators to think twice before deleting my post, as I said this is quite a serious situation, I have lost the best years of my youth to this problem and I am suffering sooo badly. I desperately need help. Some knowers commit the worst imaginable atrocities and I am a victim of such people. The very reason all is secret and hush hush. Please help me. Please advise me. I don’t know what to do. I am very suicidal, but they promised full body paralysis on each attempt so they don’t even allow a way out, which I would have taken many times.

HELP!
 
Don't do psychedelic drugs. Seek help for your Paranoid Schizophrenia. Do not talk about being suicidal here, talk to a medical professional about it immediately. That's as plain as I can state it.
 
I am sorry you are going through this - it sounds horrible.
You need to talk with your doctor about your symptoms, though.
Many, many people with these types of mental health issues believe that they are fine, and that demons or whatever are causing these issues for them.

You say that no drugs work anymore?
Then there is no harm in trying what your doctor prescribes for paranoid schizophrenia, right?

I hope you get some relief soon.
I wish you the best.
 
Wolfnippletip said:
Don't do psychedelic drugs. Seek help for your Paranoid Schizophrenia. Do not talk about being suicidal here, talk to a medical professional about it immediately. That's as plain as I can state it.
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^^^ This

Form the Health and Safety Section

H&S said:
Having problems?
If you find yourself experiencing problems related to trip integration, or mental and emotional distress of any kind as a result of your DMT usage, stop all use immediately. Should problems persist after you’ve stopped, seek professional help.
We are here to help you process the experience, but an internet forum is in no way a stand-in for appropriate mental healthcare. We are here because we share a common bond and fascination, but this fascination doesn’t automatically make us trained health care professionals. In most cases, we are not qualified to make medical assessments or advise on matters of pharmacology. If you are currently receiving professional treatment, it could be dangerous not to stick with your treatment plan. DMT is not a cure-all.
If you find yourself feeling suicidal, seek professional help immediately. If treatment is not readily and immediately available, pick up the phone and call your local suicide prevention hotline. Do not act on any impulse to harm yourself or others. Integration problems will always pass with time and discontinued use.
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Please stop taking ALL unsanctioned drugs and seek the medical help of a Doctor.
Please ignore all 'advice' from internet forums given by non trained professional medical staff :thumb_up:

We won't delete your post but if we see any spurious or dangerous advice from any user the thread will be locked.
 
Please, tell your story to a doctor, a real one. Do not fall, feel the love.
I wish you the best, remember, you are not alone. :!:
 
The only "some sort of authority" in this situation is a professional doctor/psychiatrist/psychotherapists... who knows how to deal with your condition. Forget about shamans, priests and other freaks. Yes, sometimes they may help some way, but they can harm you really really bad, as well. Psychadelics or other drugs won't help, they can most certainly make it much worse. Forget about self healing or any metaphysical cleansing, see your doctor immediately and do exactly as it says.

Be safe.

And for the people who thinks suggesting shamans or any kind of non-professional help is a good idea, please, avoid posting here. It can be very misleading and distracting. I think it's very irresponsible in this kind of situations.
 
I'd definitely take heed to any advice above suggesting that you seek a medical health professional, immediately. Any other non-medical suggestions should be ignored and disposed of. Especially if anyone thinks they can help themselves, or others, through serious life events by advocating terrible advice such as "torping."

Meditation and authentic shamans have their place, too, but this forum has rules/guidelines, as well. Organic brain dysfunction can entail dangerous, long term consequences, if not properly dealt with. Take good care!
 
melotikaci said:
The only "some sort of authority" in this situation is a professional doctor/psychiatrist/psychotherapists... who knows how to deal with your condition. Forget about shamans, priests and other freaks. Yes, sometimes they may help some way, but they can harm you really really bad, as well. Psychadelics or other drugs won't help, they can most certainly make it much worse. Forget about self healing or any metaphysical cleansing, see your doctor immediately and do exactly as it says.

Be safe.

And for the people who thinks suggesting shamans or any kind of non-professional help is a good idea, please, avoid posting here. It can be very misleading and distracting. I think it's very irresponsible in this kind of situations.
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Please take this advice to heart. It is given with your best interest at heart. And please, do not indulge in any more psychedelics or anything not prescribed by your doctor. Conversely, take the medication that is prescribed to you and don't stop until you have your doctor's say so.

The three "go see a shaman" members will be vacationing from the Nexus for awhile, as will any others who feel like putting this to the test. Go torp elsewhere, dipshits.
 
I want to refer the O.P. and everyone else to CYB's post that directs us to the Health and Safety section and advise anyone who wishes to comment to read Uncle Knucles's post carefully, For those that are unaware, Mr. Van D'Lay is a moderator on this site.

From Health and Safety:
"We are here to help you process the experience, but an internet forum is in no way a stand-in for appropriate mental healthcare."
 
This thread is now locked.

If you are going to take advice from the internet, please take the advice that has been given over and over to seek a mental health professional.
 
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