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TRUST is the main sign of a true medicine

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Recently, people asked why I dislike Mimosa as an admixture in oral brews, so it got me thinking 🤔

The simple answer is that I don't trust Mimosa. Any plant has its own energy that you need to be willing to accept in both your body and mind. Not every energy is compatible with you, and your trust develops over time as you see that a medicine benefits you. Every aspect of a journey plays a role here: how easy it is to administer, how manageable the come-up is, how workable the medicine state is, and what you gain after the session.

With some medicines, you can simply relax and let them do their job, while others require your total attention to avoid harming your psyche. Yes, we learn to manage these states and govern the energy to a degree, but some basic trust should still be present. I used Acacia for years with a strong degree of trust, until a few ceremonies made it clear that I would never be able to fully surrender to it.

We are not talking about a few random experiences where your idea of trust is superficial and serves only to help you surrender more easily. Building trust takes time and dedication. Only when you are completely sure of the plant does real safety manifest, allowing you to go deep. Rue is one of those plants, and I cannot find anything wrong with it. No matter what you do, Rue leads to a coherent healing place. I would call it a sanity medicine. I hear very similar stories about cactus and various mushroom species.

Then we have plants that remain forever on the fringe of your trust bubble. Basically, any true medicine for you is one you have full trust in and can surrender to. We are talking about very strong, life-changing substances here, so it is better to choose wisely.

What are your thoughts on the matter?
 
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Are you referring to acacia confusa? I just don’t know what “acacia” means anymore on this forum because people are using multiple species and both phyllodes/barks.
Yeah, I worked mainly with Acacia confusa from Taiwan. Don't get me wrong, it's a beautiful combo with rue. Yet, my life started to flow again only when I ended that relationship.
 
This is a poignant topic and discussion for me, as trust in all forms and in all vectors is a struggle for me. I am aware that that is my work, as that is one of the biggest barriers in my current work and practice. This is a domain in which I have so much work to do, such that I don't think I could even participate in the discussion in the way that you've framed it. I have not developed the trust enough in myself to trust the determination of my trust with specific medicines.

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This is a poignant topic and discussion for me, as trust in all forms and in all vectors is a struggle for me. I am aware that that is my work, as that is one of the biggest barriers in my current work and practice. This is a domain in which I have so much work to do, such that I don't think I could even participate in the discussion in the way that you've framed it. I have not developed the trust enough in myself to trust the determination of my trust with specific medicines.

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I feel that working with good holistic medicine works both ways. You develop trust in medicine and in yourself. On the other hand, my bark days were the most challenging and forced me to trust myself more. When your whole world crumbles in a strong ceremony, you have only yourself to rely upon. So, I'm kind of contradicting my original message here. Most likely at this point I value a balanced experience much more. Still, I have only gratitude for both mimosa and acacia. Without them, I would not have gotten here. So maybe we do not really choose our medicines, but they choose us.

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I have not developed the trust enough in myself to trust the determination of my trust with specific medicines.
Not going to miss the opportunity to quote this classic: https://dl.acm.org/doi/10.1145/358198.358210
To what extent should one trust a statement that a program is free of Trojan horses? Perhaps it is more important to trust the people who wrote the software.
Given the nature of the "software" we're dealing with here, the quote can be read in many different ways...
 
Not going to miss the opportunity to quote this classic: https://dl.acm.org/doi/10.1145/358198.358210

Given the nature of the "software" we're dealing with here, the quote can be read in many different ways...
This is a good little anchor for meditation for me. This is a good question. Naturally, there a multiple developers. Some developers are reasons for wondering about Trojan horses (ruined trust). The insistence and constancy of these ruminations come from the missing developmental code of trust. Myself as a developer of my own software to certain extents ought to be trusted for how it happens to be reflected, I suppose...

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To what extent should one trust a statement that a program is free of Trojan horses? Perhaps it is more important to trust the people who wrote the software.
Without electricity, there are no computers or software to speak of. So when the shit hits the fan, I pray to that underlying guiding force ;)
 
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