Symphonette
Rising Star
So about 2 weeks ago was my first time down Mushroom lane. They were Psilocybe Cubensis Penis Envy. I fasted for 14 hours and lemon tek'd 1 gram of ground mushrooms. They came on in about 20 minutes, at around 10:00am. It was the most intense psychedelic journey I have ever had. It blows 400ug+ of LSD out of the water. For the first while I had beautiful CEV, I had what appeared to be a female entity interacting with me, reaching into my soul, and looked to be pulling something out of me. It was almost like this(http://i.ytimg.com/vi/uCRVb-aerjA/0.jpg) but it had many more colours and was a different being altogether. At another point, I saw Ganesha of the Hindu religion. I opened my eyes to see everything waving, fluctuating colour saturations, shadows in peripheral vision, things melting and splashing into each other, audio was warped and reminded me of a few Shpongle songs, everything sounded philosophical, TV was overwhelming and gave me very bad vibrations, fractals all over the walls... My reality and everything I have ever known become almost unrecognisable. I thought I was dying, I was preparing myself for it anyway. During, I questioned everything, my beliefs, our society and our institutions. I remember me asking myself while peaking "Why do I even support the abolishment of the drug war, this is terrifying." I repeated it in my mind about 10-20 times; I laughed about it once I came down. I crawled into my bed in darkness because the OEV were too intense(for a second the grandfather clock which was in my living room lifted off the ground). The warm embrace of my blankets calmed me, and I just waited it out, thinking about everything. While in my bed, the CEV were done, it was probably an hour and a half into the trip. Whole thing lasted 3-4 hours till I was baseline. It was very spiritual, I realized how precious and delicate life is, and that I should appreciate everything I have. A very good learning and growing experience.
I wasn't expecting this level of potency, or does my body react heavily to psilocybin? I was expecting to have a low dose experience to ease myself into the substance. Anyone have similar experiences? I found post tripping that I didn't have a pounding headache as with LSD, it felt more clean and natural; earthly. I plan to do this again, but not before I have more practise in meditation. Should I up or lower the dose next time? Terence Mckenna once said that you need to take the right amount so you don't have the ability to resist, if you take below this, like I feel I did, it's overwhelming/scary. That's fine too, I don't see bad trips as bad. The trips people call bad teach you the most.
I wasn't expecting this level of potency, or does my body react heavily to psilocybin? I was expecting to have a low dose experience to ease myself into the substance. Anyone have similar experiences? I found post tripping that I didn't have a pounding headache as with LSD, it felt more clean and natural; earthly. I plan to do this again, but not before I have more practise in meditation. Should I up or lower the dose next time? Terence Mckenna once said that you need to take the right amount so you don't have the ability to resist, if you take below this, like I feel I did, it's overwhelming/scary. That's fine too, I don't see bad trips as bad. The trips people call bad teach you the most.
