using dmt to assimilate violent experience

[epiphany_awakening]

I am posting this tonight after being assaulted on a bus by 20 scumbags who were drunk and wanted to cause problems. I had some very strong grass from Amsterdam and they could obviously smell it, therefore, wanted my pot and beat me up for it. I have been on a very unclear path into the wild unknown during the past 6 months and I feel that the violence is a wake up call sent to make me change something. I have realized this and wanted to get advice on assimilitating the assault and seeing why? And with what end?
I am running into adulthood very front on and there is life running through the veins of me, I feel that I should attempt to assimilate the violent experience and make it lead me to a deeper understanding of human nature and undertake a calm aura to beat back the thoughts of retaliation and anger.
Please post with your thoughts on the matter

 

[Folding Worm•]

Every human being lives in their own reality tunnel, where all that they know they have created for themselves. Their world is not your own.
Somehow, the world and universe is perfectly balanced.
Some people think it's OK to take what they want from others.
It is up to yourself to be ready for whatever life throws your way. Sometimes, you just aren't, and you can only look at these events as learning experiences.
Do you practice martial arts? You may want to.
Not only is it good to defend yourself, but you can learn a lot about yourself, discipline, strength, perseverance, and self control through these practices.
The spirit molecule may help you get over the trauma, but ultimately it is yourself that must assimilate.
Godspeed, and sorry you had to run into these revolting monkeys.

 

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I'm very sorry to hear of this, friend, and I hope you're ok, and not too hurt or traumatised by the experience. Physical violence is always quite shocking to those of us who would never think to resort to it.

Not all people seek to walk in the light - this is the truth of human nature. We are the most violent species on the planet bar none. While other creatures may kill, not many practice cruelty for pleasure, as we do. It's part of our basic nature. But all the more wondrous that people can be be kind, open, giving in the face of this - darkness can never extinguish light.

This from the Gospel of Thomas:

"If the flesh came into being because of spirit, that is a marvel, but if spirit came into being because of the body, that is a marvel of marvels"

Be safe and wise; protect yourself by trying to anticipating danger and avoiding it. Develop your instinct - part of you probably knew what was coming before it happened; act on that instinct, and get yourself out of the situation if possible.

safe travels, friend

 

[lyserge]

Please post with your thoughts on the matter

Greetings, yes, I too am sorry you had this experience with these drunken apes. I have no advice on using the Spice to assimilate these experiences; perhaps you can offer some insight if it helps you through the post-traumatic stress you must be going through and trying to process. Sometimes when I'm feeling down the Spice, particularly in a sub-breakthrough dose, can help me to find myself in a better headspace; perhaps it will help you in the same way, and from there you may be better equipped to process what happened. Like the others, I also recommend checking out martial arts if you haven't already, a good martial arts course (I recommend Aikido) should teach awareness (and developing non-sensory awareness) and should help process this violent assault. My best wishes to you.

 

[epiphany_awakening]

do you mean martial arts to attempt to defend myself next time it happens or just to understand the attacks place in my life?

 

[lyserge]

do you mean martial arts to attempt to defend myself next time it happens or just to understand the attacks place in my life?

I was thinking more about how such arts teach one to develop awareness, to tune in to one's surrounds...that "advice" may have been overstated since you were a random victim, but that's a suggestion for a positive step you could take from here. I'm going to take my own advice and start going to aikido practice again, I've been feeling the same way - angry and less than safe - after a similar though far less violent incident that happened a few weeks ago. Good luck to you regardless.