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[RAM]

Hello,

I had much difficulty in coming up with my username, as it took me a while to think "what defines me? How do I want to convey myself and my thoughts to others at such an advanced forum?" I wanted it to be clever and related to my current explorations. I appreciate DMT and theories about it, life, consciousness, etc. so DMTheory was clever enough for me. I try to avoid judging any other about their user as I realize the potential difficulties. But I digress...

I was a frequent viewer of the Psychonaut sub on Reddit, which I am sure many of you have visited at one point or another. I also enjoyed the DMT and LSD subs. However in my recent life, my interests have swayed heavily toward DMT. There is something about it that is simply different from most of the other things I have experiences. I do not consider it a drug; I consider it a fuel for the mind, imagination, and most importantly our awareness.

Do I think DMT is inherently special? Is its molecular structure "special" when compared to a glucose molecule? Not at all. From my recently formulated hypotheses I have come to think that DMT is simply the molecule that allows Homo sapiens (and other various organisms on Earth) to access the special realms. I generally assume there is an infinite amount of other intelligent life in the multiverse, and I assume they also would eventually have access to these same planes. But they might have a different molecule that allows them to access it! The most special thing to me is the pure existence of hyperspace, rather than the physical molecule that transports us there.

I have various other theories relating to hyperspace. I am currently reading "Inner Paths to Outer Space", by Strassman, Wojtowicz, Luna, and Frecska, and I have found it to be the most fascinating thing I have ever read. I think that we have various psychotechnologies (a term frequently used by Thomas Roberts) that allow us to access multiple states and eventually traverse deep enough into outer space. Deep space. Why use a flying saucer or wild flying machine when there is a psychic plane that can be manipulated to reach such depths? Yet again I digress.

A bit about my history: My drug experiences went from marijuana, to mescaline (San Pedro then synthesized), to shrooms, to LSD, and finally to freebase DMT. I wanted to try all of the classical psychedelics, and I was very happy that I did. As you can see it led me to DMT for which I am endlessly grateful. I managed to work through a lot of my earthly problems with LSD and shrooms, which have made me a much, much happier and fulfilled person. I can now enter psychedelic states of mind at my leisure to feel the perfection surrounding me in the universe. I have no drug cravings, nor cravings for anything I view as unhealthy for the inextricable thing that is "my body." But I do have a stinging curiosity to explore and begin to map out this shamanistic plane, with which so many here are utterly fascinated.

We have much exploring to do together. I am very happy to be able to join such an intelligent hive of quality information. While many posts seem similar to others, some are extremely unique. I am excited to see where this road leads, and I am sure I will see many of you around the forum, and possibly in hyperspace.

 

[Pandora]

Hello DMTheory,

Welcome to the Nexus.

That was quite an in-depth introduction essay. Extremely well written and pleasantly edited I don't mind saying either. A pure pleasure to read. I'm surprised I'm the first to reply here.

I guess with such a profound and in-depth essay, that covers so much territory there is little to say.

I mean if you wanted to share anything more specific about you and your journey, or even your journey to DMT, and how you have found/created this self-healing space, I'm sure it would be well received.

Anything else you would like to share, such as do you do your own extractions, do you vape or eat or both, things of that sort?

Regardless, with something so indepth as is, I am left repeating Welcome to the Nexus.

Warm Regards,
Pandora

 

[RAM]

Thank you for the warm welcome! I am very happy to be here; this is perhaps the best forum I have ever come across, and it is one of the greatest archives of knowledge of which I have ever been a part.

In regards to the specifics of my spice use, I have not extracted in the past. I am waiting for the perfect moment, and with my current studies I am unable to invest the time that is needed to perform a perfect extraction. I am also a little hesitant working with caustic materials.

Before, I have ingested San Pedro cactus powder in capsules without an extraction. So I do understand how powerful the plants themselves can be, and after some recent reading I decided that next time I venture out I may simply make an ayahuasca brew rather than go through with the whole extraction process.

I have only used freebase before, the first time in a freebase pipe where I burned my mouth (I tried using a torch on a tiny pipe and it was not a good idea; it's a learning process for sure). Then I used a bong with the sandwich method a couple times which worked well. I vaporized it with the Arizer Solo, on which I had one of my most powerful journeys; it was a good full 20 minutes of just being out there! Then I went back to my new DMT only bong.

My latest journey was at the peak of a mushroom trip, which was absolutely stunning. I have felt extremely peaceful while I am out there. I came across a grand sphinx (even though I describe it as a sphinx, that is just my human mind trying to put words to what it was to transfer the meaning to anyone reading). It gave me certain instructions on what to do, and I integrated these into my first tattoo that reminds me every single day of that trip and those special instructions.

In the future besides the aya brew I do plan to purchase a Vapor Genie. If I am going to go a lot deeper into this I might as well have the tool that professionals use. :d I already have a nifty torch lighter, and once I get all my needed extraction materials I will be set for a while.

Regarding the "healing space" you mentioned: LSD brutalized my mind after the first couple uses. I became extremely guilty about the horrible things that I could do with my body. I would look at things and think about things, and just the most horrible thoughts would come into my mind. I was terrified, but after a couple months of trying to integrate I realized that I was having extreme existential anxiety. I've always been a mature person but the LSD propelled it to a new level.

Long story short, I realized my freedom. Yes, I could buy a bunch of liquor and get drunk. Yes, I could get stoned everyday. Yes, I could eat a bunch of candy and fast food. Yes, I could have sex with disgusting women. Yes, I could not exercise, sauna, stretch, meditate, or hope. But that't the beauty that so many fail to realize! We have the ultimate choice for what we want for ourselves in the end!

Before I would ask, "How can I make choices if nothing matters objectively?" Well, I do things that I want to do. That I find right. Why recycle; the world's fucked as it is, right? But I don't feel right if I don't recycle. I KNOW it's better. And although to some it may sound like hedonism, I believe it is almost the opposite. Instead of just going through the motions I try to think about what is right for me, for others, and for the world. Without drugs, I would be a worse person by my standards. I even saved a man's life, and I'm not sure I would have done that had I not started psychs.

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There are downsides, however. I now have problems relating with superficial people. Deep down I love them and would help them, but I get so frustrated on a daily basis just looking at some people. It has hurt my communication with them, and now I have troubles finding suitable friends and girlfriends. Is this worth inner peace? I think so, but I am still searching for a social balance.

Thanks for reading if you did; if you wanted to know me a lot is in here. I'm looking forward to where we can go on this forum.

 

[MrVortex]

Welcome DMTheory

Nice to know your story. I must say that I recognize the dealing with superficial people and finding suitable friends. Also that in the end, you recognize most of your "friends" are actually pretty superficial. You try to bring up the subject (psychedelics, spiritual discussion), but most just want the "high", or want nothing to do with it at all. Seeing things scares them, let alone you bring up the concept of communicating with your subconsciousness and/or otherworldly entities. I tried telling a friend of mine of about my lucid dreaming experiences (they are rather intense), but she felt it was strange and was clearly not that interested. Sigh.

Society as a whole begins to disgusts you. Then again, as you progress you can put it in a sort of framework and see that everyone has their own path to walk. Unfortunately the path toward "insight" is often a lonely one.

 

[RAM]

Thanks MrVortex. I see you're a newer member too so welcome to you as well.

It is unfortunate that so few people take a serious effort in pursuing deep philosophical matters and questions on a rigorous scale. I think many are scared of what they may find, while others may be lazy, and even others might have simply never thought about such things because of their prior education/context.

Of course I don't find the way others live to be wrong, per se, but I think many are never given the option to go deep. That's why I love forums like these. Some people might read all this stuff and go "What the fuck am I reading, these people are crazy" while another might think "Wow I never considered stuff like this!!"

It all goes with my new favorite saying: Different strokes, for different folks.