What DMT Gives You DMT Takes It Away

[Desterrado]

Hey Desterrado. I feel you, since my experience with DMT are on the same spectrum, nearly the same just with different variables. We both are babies that got our candies stolen

Did you ever heard about "Dark night of the soul", popularised in some spiritual writings? I feel like that's may be the answer. I have been exiled 3 years before now, and just like you I tried to do the same things that I did while I was guided by this higher power, the roof. But now I just know that I have to move on, and little voice tells me that going through the dark night will somehow pay off. And that hedonism after all is the answer to suffering :d

Hey and don't listen to Psyduckmonkey. That one is evil, and wants to lead you astray. Don't try to consciously control your life. Rather be here and now as much as you can, and wait for it. Just in case, I am kidding. You are always here and now, so the only thing you can actually do is make decisions pull the levers and direct your ship towards the heart of the sun :d

I feel your response, its good to meet other people that are going trough the same as myself. Im not alone in this real life experience

 

[Desterrado]

Looks like DMT in its infinite mystery gave you a ride with training wheels, and the training wheels are off. It wasn't cheating, it was a lesson. Get back on the bike, you will fall off maybe, but keep trying - perhaps the message is that it is time to realise you can ride the bike by yourself if you believe.

Sounds to me like you are someone going through significant personal growth, embrace it, keep moving, never stop learning.

THANK YOU AGAIN upwaysidedown, your thoughts mean alot.
I have to get back on the bike, I dont want life to let me behind

 

[Cazman043]

I think people making comments on your mental health are in a complete wrong here. They haven't got anywhere near enough information to provide a comment such as "Maybe you have bipolar" and that will just create more paranoia in the subject who is expressing themselves.

Maybe this episode is coming to understand that life, in its nature, is energy, and energy has waves and troughs, ups and downs, you were on a high, now a low… Why the hell does that mean you have bipolar on the little knowledge we have received!?!?! I apologise on behalf of the other individuals who actually have the audacity to make such a comment and for adding to the already state of paranoia.

Heres my take on your situation:
If an individual is identified with form, then they don't recognise the fundamental truth of existence. All things are impermanent. If you find your happiness anywhere outside of yourself, DMT will make you very conscious of the fact that these very facets will one day be stripped away from you. If however, you take the inward journey, you will stop desiring to get High, because with every high comes a low, and you can start working on yourself to be present to whatever IS. That means, whatever is presented to you in the Moment, you see it for what it is, without any resistance, recognising the impermanence of its nature. With happiness comes unhappiness, everything has its opposite. Find the way which is beyond all polarities, and you will be at peace in any experience that comes your way my friend.

PS. Maybe read about the Dark Night of the Soul, it might resonate if you're feeling you've lost the world.

My love to you brother, we've all been where you've been my friend, and you are loved, remember that! ~~MC~~

 

[Desterrado]

Cazman043

Theres no need to apologyze, in fact I aprecciate that people take the time to read my experience and give advice, as you kindly are doing, I've been watching carefully my thoughts the past few days, and try not to let them control me in a manner that let the anxiety take over.

The truth is that to be able to talk about it and to feel the empathy of others, it does feel really good, and I think this place truly helps. thank you Cazman043

 

[OneStepBeyond]

I think people making comments on your mental health are in a complete wrong here. They haven't got anywhere near enough information to provide a comment such as "Maybe you have bipolar" and that will just create more paranoia in the subject who is expressing themselves.

Maybe this episode is coming to understand that life, in its nature, is energy, and energy has waves and troughs, ups and downs, you were on a high, now a low… Why the hell does that mean you have bipolar on the little knowledge we have received!?!?! I apologise on behalf of the other individuals who actually have the audacity to make such a comment and for adding to the already state of paranoia.

The OP created a post, seemingly asking for an explanation of what was happening to him. As I mentioned in my previous posts I didn't want to say anything about bipolar "based on a short description", but because somebody else mentioned it as a possibility, it might be something to think about as a "possibility". I also gave some other more general advice.

I did not give a diagnosis I only gave my thoughts as requested, and as you did based on the same information. I don't appreciate your dismissive tone. For the record I do not apologize, and next time maybe put your energy into coming up with your own original thoughts rather than having the audacity to attempt to belittle other members who are trying to be helpful.

 

[Cazman043]

I did not give a diagnosis I only gave my thoughts as requested, and as you did based on the same information. I don't appreciate your dismissive tone. For the record I do not apologize, and next time maybe put your energy into coming up with your own original thoughts rather than having the audacity to attempt to belittle other members who are trying to be helpful.

Im sorry if you feel disregarded in this matter, however… I think you took little consideration of the fragility of this persons situation and to even hint at a specified psychological illness which you narrowed down to bipolar is due for scrutinous examination. Suggest that he might want to go speak to a psychologist or psychiatrist, as there could be underlying psychological issues, as this will nurture the individuals current mental state.

Thank you beloved one though for your thoughts and I understand where you're coming from.

Love ~~MC~~