@DebbyLovinLife
It is impossible to say if you will be ready for DMT. In many ways, no one ever is... no matter how many times they have taken it. There are certain characteristics that tend to mark people who are destined to be psychonauts, but very often, the people who seem to be prime for Hyperspace are shattered by it... while people who logic would dictate should never come near the molecule, handle it rather well.
It is so unpredictable, that I have given up trying to assess if someone "should" do DMT or not. I personally won't give it to the vast majority of people... simply because I don't want the responsibility... and because it is hard to trust people... and because I have an aversion to crazy. But who am I to say that a DMT trip might not be just what these people need to break their psychosis?
If you do do DMT, it is likely that at some point, it will break through your "control freak" shell. This may scare the living hell out of you... or it may liberate you... or both. The fact that you feel drawn to spice is a good indication that there is something important for you there. The fact that you would read every post in an epic thread like this shows that you are, at the very least, Nexian material grade A.
I think your thoughtfulness and caution will serve you well. DMT is actually easier on a control freak than even LSD, shrooms or cacti because there is no way you can even try to control it. It shatters your illusions of control so fast that you don't have time to defend them. LSD, for example, could sit with you challenging your ego for hours until you can't stand it anymore.
IMHO most people can get through 5 or 10 minutes of stark drooling terror or tears of joy rapture... or even being ripped apart into fractal alternate reality tunnels and shredded into cosmic dust. The experience may seem eternal, but in the end you will return and your reality will continue as it was with no harm done to your body. But, you may need a month to process that 10 minutes.
Good luck.
HF
It is impossible to say if you will be ready for DMT. In many ways, no one ever is... no matter how many times they have taken it. There are certain characteristics that tend to mark people who are destined to be psychonauts, but very often, the people who seem to be prime for Hyperspace are shattered by it... while people who logic would dictate should never come near the molecule, handle it rather well.
It is so unpredictable, that I have given up trying to assess if someone "should" do DMT or not. I personally won't give it to the vast majority of people... simply because I don't want the responsibility... and because it is hard to trust people... and because I have an aversion to crazy. But who am I to say that a DMT trip might not be just what these people need to break their psychosis?
If you do do DMT, it is likely that at some point, it will break through your "control freak" shell. This may scare the living hell out of you... or it may liberate you... or both. The fact that you feel drawn to spice is a good indication that there is something important for you there. The fact that you would read every post in an epic thread like this shows that you are, at the very least, Nexian material grade A.
I think your thoughtfulness and caution will serve you well. DMT is actually easier on a control freak than even LSD, shrooms or cacti because there is no way you can even try to control it. It shatters your illusions of control so fast that you don't have time to defend them. LSD, for example, could sit with you challenging your ego for hours until you can't stand it anymore.
IMHO most people can get through 5 or 10 minutes of stark drooling terror or tears of joy rapture... or even being ripped apart into fractal alternate reality tunnels and shredded into cosmic dust. The experience may seem eternal, but in the end you will return and your reality will continue as it was with no harm done to your body. But, you may need a month to process that 10 minutes.
Good luck.
HF
