Psytherion
Rising Star
I'm still new to psychedelics but I'll try to explain the best I can what I remember. I believe I took 20mgs 2ce and 2cI would be the same or less. I ate around 2:30pm and started my trip at 8:00pm this took place last Wednesday. Starting off I just surfed the net for a bit and listened too some music checked out some visionary art. Prolly 50 minutes in I noticed visuals were taking on a watery quality and if I looked at pictures and such I noticed a whole different personality that did not exclude the environment. My senses became heightened too the extreme.
The rest will likely not be in the correct order but anyways Laying down in darkness I would get a lot of dark imagery and eventually it came to a point where the best way I can describe it is I was in a whirlpool of sorts and Friends and such would appear but they seemed to be in desperation like the world was in peril (listening to Entheogenic Evolution M. Ball would usually make it sound like before you are Self realized that what you see is just a reflection of your conflict with yourself). Me being very into Jungian Psychology I tend to agree with that though it is still difficult to understand. I was spoken too as though I was a last resort or something like it was important that I do something. Sometimes I felt like the way people would speak in this mindscape or Hyperspace not particularly sure the difference, was commenting on the state of things. Almost like I was hampered in some way or conditioned and it was understood why. A lot of times I feel like I am at the bottom if such a place existed almost like I had become so accustomed to life that I wasn't really getting the juices out of life. Also I go through a moment where I feel completely exposed anything one may want hidden seems as though everyone can see it but if what I see is a reflection then it must have more to do with how I feel about those things than others. Theres always this sense like I have experienced this before life I mean like reincarnation or something. Though I tend too see things almost like were all mirrors of one another. I have felt in a state of detachment for a good while now which I don't particularly care for.
Is the whirlpool a sort of Ego Death/Transcendence? Still not totally sure.
Later I went through a birth sequence and it was presented like a gift. But they would also have this expression on there faces like does he get it yet? I would also be told a lot that we were much more than the body. Keep in mind I didn't see any strange entities they all remained in human form. They always act like family though whether it's friends I know in everyday life or maybe someone who does a lot of podcasts like (Daniellie Bolelli, Aubrey Marcus, or Duncan Trussell). There were times where it was as if I was being shown that there was nothing that was separate from the Self. I would be alternating between two places like poles or two extremes. Going through this Birth Sequence seemed to span across time from the past to now and the future. I have been through Birth Sequences similar to this three times like everytime I get a little farther. But I always end up in a place where I feel disoriented like wtf is going on right after Birth sorta speak. I usually forget most of it till some time goes by then I'm able to better recall. Anyways the Birth sequence seems very loving but I don't really feel it to any great degree which I assume has to do with Self Love that the love I have for self and other will be reflected back at me alas there seems little to go around on my end.
The rest will likely not be in the correct order but anyways Laying down in darkness I would get a lot of dark imagery and eventually it came to a point where the best way I can describe it is I was in a whirlpool of sorts and Friends and such would appear but they seemed to be in desperation like the world was in peril (listening to Entheogenic Evolution M. Ball would usually make it sound like before you are Self realized that what you see is just a reflection of your conflict with yourself). Me being very into Jungian Psychology I tend to agree with that though it is still difficult to understand. I was spoken too as though I was a last resort or something like it was important that I do something. Sometimes I felt like the way people would speak in this mindscape or Hyperspace not particularly sure the difference, was commenting on the state of things. Almost like I was hampered in some way or conditioned and it was understood why. A lot of times I feel like I am at the bottom if such a place existed almost like I had become so accustomed to life that I wasn't really getting the juices out of life. Also I go through a moment where I feel completely exposed anything one may want hidden seems as though everyone can see it but if what I see is a reflection then it must have more to do with how I feel about those things than others. Theres always this sense like I have experienced this before life I mean like reincarnation or something. Though I tend too see things almost like were all mirrors of one another. I have felt in a state of detachment for a good while now which I don't particularly care for.
Is the whirlpool a sort of Ego Death/Transcendence? Still not totally sure.
Later I went through a birth sequence and it was presented like a gift. But they would also have this expression on there faces like does he get it yet? I would also be told a lot that we were much more than the body. Keep in mind I didn't see any strange entities they all remained in human form. They always act like family though whether it's friends I know in everyday life or maybe someone who does a lot of podcasts like (Daniellie Bolelli, Aubrey Marcus, or Duncan Trussell). There were times where it was as if I was being shown that there was nothing that was separate from the Self. I would be alternating between two places like poles or two extremes. Going through this Birth Sequence seemed to span across time from the past to now and the future. I have been through Birth Sequences similar to this three times like everytime I get a little farther. But I always end up in a place where I feel disoriented like wtf is going on right after Birth sorta speak. I usually forget most of it till some time goes by then I'm able to better recall. Anyways the Birth sequence seems very loving but I don't really feel it to any great degree which I assume has to do with Self Love that the love I have for self and other will be reflected back at me alas there seems little to go around on my end.
