Hello All,
I recently completed an extraction with nice results. This is the first time I've extracted in a while (6 months) and the last time I extracted I gave all of the stuff away. I have not really partaken in the smoking activities in almost 10 months and I'm a bit nervous about using it again.
About a year ago I learned how to extract and I was smoking a lot spice last Spring - mostly outside in the sunny weather, sometimes multiple times daily. At first I felt that the spice was an infinite supply of insight and self-reflection that was beneficial to my psyche. Soon however, I found that my experiences lacked the focus and brilliance that I had associated with hyperspace and sub-hyperspace. After a while I no longer really knew why I wanted to have these experiences. The trips became weird and were not the beautiful eye-opening events that the first handful were. I ran out sometime at the beginning of summer and because I moved from my college apartment back home for the summer, I had no place to extract and therefore no more supply of spice.
As I mentioned, I have extracted a few times since summer, but I have only used the goods on a few occasions and only very small amounts when with some friends who were using it. I also recently quit smoking MJ - I was a daily user (addict?) for 3 or 4 years and am very happy I was finally able to kick the habit (don't even crave the stuff anymore). I feel like I'm in a much better head space than I've been in a several years and I've very interested in using the spice again, but all the while I have this anxiety thinking about the content that might inhabit hyperspace for me this time around. I have had some extremely powerful breakthrough experiences in the past and almost all of them were fantastic, euphoric and positive; some were rather dark, confusing, scary and negative. Almost immediately following and of these negative trips, I was able to integrate the experiences and find value and wisdom within them - meaning that upon reflection even these 'negative' trips could be interpreted as positive by me.
Sorry for the long ramble, I guess the point of this post is to just see if anyone out there has any advice on revisiting this wonderful substance for the first time in a while. I know that I was overusing last year and was grasping for something that I wasn't able to receive (chasing elusive spiritual mysteries?). This time around I am committed to using this gift sparingly and only in the most spiritual way I know. I want to learn from what it has to offer, but not feel dependent on its wisdom. I'm not sure if I'm really depressed now, but I have struggled with depression throughout my life and I worry I have some toxic energy within me that might be unleashed if I do not cleanse myself properly before hand. I plan on eating lightly (mostly green foods), drinking plenty of water, exercising, meditating, and maybe even fasting in the days before I experiment once again. Any ideas on how to ensure a clear, powerful, and positive experience from the substance this time around?
Thanks to anyone who reads this long, disorganized post and/or has any suggestions!
Safe Travels
- J
I recently completed an extraction with nice results. This is the first time I've extracted in a while (6 months) and the last time I extracted I gave all of the stuff away. I have not really partaken in the smoking activities in almost 10 months and I'm a bit nervous about using it again.
About a year ago I learned how to extract and I was smoking a lot spice last Spring - mostly outside in the sunny weather, sometimes multiple times daily. At first I felt that the spice was an infinite supply of insight and self-reflection that was beneficial to my psyche. Soon however, I found that my experiences lacked the focus and brilliance that I had associated with hyperspace and sub-hyperspace. After a while I no longer really knew why I wanted to have these experiences. The trips became weird and were not the beautiful eye-opening events that the first handful were. I ran out sometime at the beginning of summer and because I moved from my college apartment back home for the summer, I had no place to extract and therefore no more supply of spice.
As I mentioned, I have extracted a few times since summer, but I have only used the goods on a few occasions and only very small amounts when with some friends who were using it. I also recently quit smoking MJ - I was a daily user (addict?) for 3 or 4 years and am very happy I was finally able to kick the habit (don't even crave the stuff anymore). I feel like I'm in a much better head space than I've been in a several years and I've very interested in using the spice again, but all the while I have this anxiety thinking about the content that might inhabit hyperspace for me this time around. I have had some extremely powerful breakthrough experiences in the past and almost all of them were fantastic, euphoric and positive; some were rather dark, confusing, scary and negative. Almost immediately following and of these negative trips, I was able to integrate the experiences and find value and wisdom within them - meaning that upon reflection even these 'negative' trips could be interpreted as positive by me.
Sorry for the long ramble, I guess the point of this post is to just see if anyone out there has any advice on revisiting this wonderful substance for the first time in a while. I know that I was overusing last year and was grasping for something that I wasn't able to receive (chasing elusive spiritual mysteries?). This time around I am committed to using this gift sparingly and only in the most spiritual way I know. I want to learn from what it has to offer, but not feel dependent on its wisdom. I'm not sure if I'm really depressed now, but I have struggled with depression throughout my life and I worry I have some toxic energy within me that might be unleashed if I do not cleanse myself properly before hand. I plan on eating lightly (mostly green foods), drinking plenty of water, exercising, meditating, and maybe even fasting in the days before I experiment once again. Any ideas on how to ensure a clear, powerful, and positive experience from the substance this time around?
Thanks to anyone who reads this long, disorganized post and/or has any suggestions!
Safe Travels
- J
