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I've recently (well, actually during my last mescaline journey) came to realise that in the last few years, i have become a more anxious person. When i was younger (i'm 39 now),i just used to live without holding back, without any fear. I would climb trees, swim very far offshore, travel the world without making any plans..i even did some skydiving and stuff. But last year, for the first time in my life, i actually experienced vertigo. I was Climbing a scaffold and halfway..i just got a dizzy kind of feeling and i suddenly noticed that i was afraid.
I don't know if it's normal to become a more anxious person when you get older. But i just feel that i somehow should loosen up a little. I'm a more uptight kind of person than i used to be, and i don't realy like that.
It's not realy terrible. I do get out, have fun and try new things every now and then. But it's just...sometimes i can't help thinking "what a dick have i become".
I don't know if it's normal to become a more anxious person when you get older. But i just feel that i somehow should loosen up a little. I'm a more uptight kind of person than i used to be, and i don't realy like that.
It's not realy terrible. I do get out, have fun and try new things every now and then. But it's just...sometimes i can't help thinking "what a dick have i become".
