just my opinion this isnt a craving, your not doing this on impulse, if it says do it then you should do it.
i have had a call for aya for a while now, one which i have not really taken, and since that call i have been terrified to go back, because i heard it as clear as day, a thundering like a sound half way between a bell ringing and a drum beating, like if you take a piece of metal or glass and you rub it just the right way the resonances becomes deafening as if it is calling out across entire reaches of space.
im still afraid to answer it, but i know i have to and soon, the information is to important, the implications to profound, but it is terrifying you know, knowing you will never be the same person again, terrified of losing all the ones you lose, because you know in your heart that the path to englishtenment is through distruction and that means you must break all the bonds that tie you to the limitations of this world.
their are people i love and i do not want to lose them, but i must accept it, they will die and so while i, and unless you accept it you are unable to see the beauty of true unhindered reality.
if you have heard the call then answer it, i know that as i say this i am terrified to, follow the path to the end and do not stop until you cannot find any where else to step and then when you have reached the end jump right off of it.
Answer the call and rise to the moment, become more than the sum of your parts.
i hope one day i will be able to take my own advise.