Can the term "odd" be applied at all to DMT?

[windyshaman]

Been keeping my DMT practice to about once per 3-weeks/month for the last few months.. And things were getting somewhat odd lately.

Coudn't breakthrough on my previous session despite a pretty long break - about a month. However - after the 3rd attempt - came to a point during the afterglow where I just gave up, relaxed, closed my eyes and whhhaaaam!!! it just hit me... you know that audible DMT rumble we get to experience during stronger "dives"? I was seeing it as waves of energy and vibration... was seeing it, feeling it, hearing it, experiencing it going through me and me being a part of it...

Today, almost another 4 weeks later, got really anxious for a long-awaited session. Butchered it from the get go as I wanted to try another vaping setup, tried again with my normal rig to not much avail, like nothing... barely some noticeable enough OEV-s, nothing with eyes closed though. Gave it another - last shot, still to basically nothing, my lungs were too irritated from that initial trial of another vaping setup - had a really hard time trying to keep the vapor in... And then I just gave up again, figured "things aren't aligning it for me Today, stop forcing it", leaned back, relaxed, closed my eyes and whaaaam!!! it hit me again!!! Not as intense, but still - same exact DMT rumble waves of energy!

Really not certain what's going on, but the drift I'm getting: there's not much left for me in the DMT realm. I've got all the answers - get back to carrying water and chopping wood.

 

[Transform]

Odd? I'd find it peculiar if it wasn't, although "capricious" sometimes fits the bill too. I'm sure we could find quite the range of adjectives for it between us all, from "terrifying" to "glorious" and beyond, even.

Time to integrate?

 

[froggydays]

I think it also has to do with the setting, and building up the dose. For example, a few small doses initially and then waiting for say half an hour before a full dose.

Also if you're anxious I wouldn't recommend it.

 

[Panpsychic]

Really not certain what's going on, but the drift I'm getting: there's not much left for me in the DMT realm. I've got all the answers - get back to carrying water and chopping wood.

I wouldn't necessarily interpret it like that. The part about chopping wood and carrying water yes, and also that there may not currently be much left for you from the DMT realm - for now.

DMT, especially with Harmalas has a seemingly unique capacity to regulate our access and allow us in or not, as is suitable. If you are just coming for fireworks it often tends to stop showing you that. I would take the message to be that there is work to do on yourself. So not simply taking an extended break but also to fulfil what you are supposed to be doing in life, and when you are functioning at that level it will allow you to come back and participate in greater levels of experience than you had as yet seen.

 

[windyshaman]

I wouldn't necessarily interpret it like that. The part about chopping wood and carrying water yes, and also that there may not currently be much left for you from the DMT realm - for now.

DMT, especially with Harmalas has a seemingly unique capacity to regulate our access and allow us in or not, as is suitable. If you are just coming for fireworks it often tends to stop showing you that. I would take the message to be that there is work to do on yourself. So not simply taking an extended break but also to fulfil what you are supposed to be doing in life, and when you are functioning at that level it will allow you to come back and participate in greater levels of experience than you had as yet seen.

Or it can be the simple fact that it has been almost 2 months since I had had a really bad flu - which really felt like Covid. For the last 2 weeks, every time I laydown my throat starts feeling up with gunk and I'm still waking up with plugged up nasal passages. All that to say - my lung might simply be unable to take in any vaporized DMT currently.

I did cut down on changa lately, noticed that it is affecting my sleep for a few days following a ceremony, so last two sessions were purely with freebase.

Mentally though - I've been in an interesting place lately - every time a thought about psychedelics come up - I'm like "it's fine, I don't exactly need any right now"... Really interesting. Can't help looking back and smiling at myself a couple years back longing for yet another dive in on cubes and 6 months backs impatiently waiting for the next DMT ceremony...

 

[Transform]

Or it can be the simple fact that it has been almost 2 months since I had had a really bad flu - which really felt like Covid. For the last 2 weeks, every time I laydown my throat starts feeling up with gunk and I'm still waking up with plugged up nasal passages. All that to say - my lung might simply be unable to take in any vaporized DMT currently.

I did cut down on changa lately, noticed that it is affecting my sleep for a few days following a ceremony, so last two sessions were purely with freebase.

Mentally though - I've been in an interesting place lately - every time a thought about psychedelics come up - I'm like "it's fine, I don't exactly need any right now"... Really interesting. Can't help looking back and smiling at myself a couple years back longing for yet another dive in on cubes and 6 months backs impatiently waiting for the next DMT ceremony...

Have you ever explored oral harmalas by themselves? Sorry for my 'default setting' answer, looking at all your replies I didn't see it as something you've mentioned. Perhaps you'd find some benefit there at the right time and in the right context.