I am completely and utterly befuddled by what I encountered and what "it" tried to convey to me, so hopefully someone who already had a more enlightening encounter can jump in here and help me understand who and what this entity is and what its motivations are. It's very hard for me to describe most of the attributes of this entity, partly because of its highly abstract nature for which no frame of reference exists in this waking consciousness reality, and partly because I have forgotten a lot of the finer details. So even though it makes the overall description of the being in question relatively difficult, I will still try my best.
1. The entity seems to be a sentient space with a sort of collective intelligence acting in a uniform manner. It has a reptilian feel to it (I generally noticed that an overwhelming amount of beings that I encounter are reptilian, even some of the Jesters).
2. It seems to be at least 4-dimensional (no not in the new agey sense, but in the geometric), possibly higher.
3. Its presence feels extremely uncomfortable, as if your mind is being slowly stretched and ripped apart. On the one hand I wanted the experience to immediately end, but on the other hand I wanted it to stay to understand it and what it is trying to "tell" me (I remember how it was surprised due to this, as if it expected a flight reaction but instead got something it neither expected nor was familiar with). I remember how I kept repeatedly saying "must understand it" in a cramped up, feverish kind of way. Coming to think of it I am not quite sure if it was its presence that caused the extreme discomfort, or the kind of information it wanted to transfer to me. Perhaps any sort of distinction between those two is a false dichotomy.
4. Now comes the weird part: whenever I concentrated too intensely on this sentient space being, it instantly faded away and that is when two disembodied hands became visible (one coming from the right, one from the left) who did movements akin to what you see in shadowgraphy (the performance art, not the optical methodology employed in physics). It felt to me as if I glimpsed behind the curtain. It also felt as if I was not supposed to actually see this after which the hands faded away and the living space thing came into view again. It was very unsettling to me, but it was also fascinating. Whenever I managed to "make" the hands come back and saw those weird, fluid movements, it quickly made itself disappear again. Thinking of it in hindsight it actually reminds me of Plato's cave allegory.
5. It prevented me from looking away as well as from blinking...which interestingly wasn't neccessary because during the entire time I was convinced that I had to channel all of my mental energy and attention into maintaining the stability of the being, otherwise it would disappear.
6. There is a strong possibility that the entity is evil but it did not exhibit evil intentions against me. To give an analogy: a misanthropic person who generally hates humans but has nothing against some select individuals.
7. Its origin is likely chaos. Not in the modern sense of the word, as in disorder, but in its actual, etymological, mythical sense of emptiness. That eternal, bottomless black nothingness outside of the cosmos that spawns and houses abstract, extreme, morally inhuman and otherwise aberrant beings that theo-philosophically are usually seen as antithetical to an harmonious, temperate, benevolent universe. Take this and the previous point with a grain of salt as I am not sure of the accuracy of my perception. In fact, you can ignore it because even if you take that away it wouldn't change anything about its identity.
8. I remember when it departed I suddenly had to think of the kabbalistic tree of life. It actually looked like it ascended up that figurative tree. Was that maybe a way of it telling me that it is an entity that is very high up in the cosmic hierarchy of being?
I noticed after a few seconds when I came back to myself and was able to blink again that I was crying since a while because I failed to understand what it tried to tell me.
That is all I can remember. If someone has encountered this or a very similar being and can report on his own experiences with it I'd be thankful for some input. I'm not asking anyone here to speculate on what the entity intended to tell me. That is impossible anyway because there is nothing I can describe that information with. It is probably seed information anyway (something that reveals itself gradually over time or when certain conditions are met). It is more the identity of the being that I am currently interested in. Thank you for your attention.
P.S.: I haven't touched DMT since over half a year now actually. I am not sure if this is because I am scared of meeting this being again and have my mind torn apart again, or if it is because my spirit currently has no desire to take DMT (you know what they say; you don't call DMT, DMT calls you).
1. The entity seems to be a sentient space with a sort of collective intelligence acting in a uniform manner. It has a reptilian feel to it (I generally noticed that an overwhelming amount of beings that I encounter are reptilian, even some of the Jesters).
2. It seems to be at least 4-dimensional (no not in the new agey sense, but in the geometric), possibly higher.
3. Its presence feels extremely uncomfortable, as if your mind is being slowly stretched and ripped apart. On the one hand I wanted the experience to immediately end, but on the other hand I wanted it to stay to understand it and what it is trying to "tell" me (I remember how it was surprised due to this, as if it expected a flight reaction but instead got something it neither expected nor was familiar with). I remember how I kept repeatedly saying "must understand it" in a cramped up, feverish kind of way. Coming to think of it I am not quite sure if it was its presence that caused the extreme discomfort, or the kind of information it wanted to transfer to me. Perhaps any sort of distinction between those two is a false dichotomy.
4. Now comes the weird part: whenever I concentrated too intensely on this sentient space being, it instantly faded away and that is when two disembodied hands became visible (one coming from the right, one from the left) who did movements akin to what you see in shadowgraphy (the performance art, not the optical methodology employed in physics). It felt to me as if I glimpsed behind the curtain. It also felt as if I was not supposed to actually see this after which the hands faded away and the living space thing came into view again. It was very unsettling to me, but it was also fascinating. Whenever I managed to "make" the hands come back and saw those weird, fluid movements, it quickly made itself disappear again. Thinking of it in hindsight it actually reminds me of Plato's cave allegory.
5. It prevented me from looking away as well as from blinking...which interestingly wasn't neccessary because during the entire time I was convinced that I had to channel all of my mental energy and attention into maintaining the stability of the being, otherwise it would disappear.
6. There is a strong possibility that the entity is evil but it did not exhibit evil intentions against me. To give an analogy: a misanthropic person who generally hates humans but has nothing against some select individuals.
7. Its origin is likely chaos. Not in the modern sense of the word, as in disorder, but in its actual, etymological, mythical sense of emptiness. That eternal, bottomless black nothingness outside of the cosmos that spawns and houses abstract, extreme, morally inhuman and otherwise aberrant beings that theo-philosophically are usually seen as antithetical to an harmonious, temperate, benevolent universe. Take this and the previous point with a grain of salt as I am not sure of the accuracy of my perception. In fact, you can ignore it because even if you take that away it wouldn't change anything about its identity.
8. I remember when it departed I suddenly had to think of the kabbalistic tree of life. It actually looked like it ascended up that figurative tree. Was that maybe a way of it telling me that it is an entity that is very high up in the cosmic hierarchy of being?
I noticed after a few seconds when I came back to myself and was able to blink again that I was crying since a while because I failed to understand what it tried to tell me.
That is all I can remember. If someone has encountered this or a very similar being and can report on his own experiences with it I'd be thankful for some input. I'm not asking anyone here to speculate on what the entity intended to tell me. That is impossible anyway because there is nothing I can describe that information with. It is probably seed information anyway (something that reveals itself gradually over time or when certain conditions are met). It is more the identity of the being that I am currently interested in. Thank you for your attention.
P.S.: I haven't touched DMT since over half a year now actually. I am not sure if this is because I am scared of meeting this being again and have my mind torn apart again, or if it is because my spirit currently has no desire to take DMT (you know what they say; you don't call DMT, DMT calls you).
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