Salute.
I would like to present to you my first experience with DMT.
By a twist of fate, I had a vape with this substance. I do not know the dosage of the substance in the vaporized liquid. My experience with self-control, meditation, and an amanita trip gave me a fairly high level of self-confidence and the belief that I would be able to maintain control until the very end.
First experience:
My first experience with DMT as such was on 22.04.2026. The evening was calm. Meditating (maybe more like inducing self-hypnosis) with the help of the Gateway Experience Wave I: Exploration, Sleep recordings, I realized that the time had come. I began to tune in to the desire to be cured of long-term depression (about 10 years of illness) and to prepare for a resolute and calm journey. After half an hour of listening to the recording, I prepared the vaporizer and lay down again for meditation. This time I used the recording Gateway Experience Wave I: Free Flow Focus 10. The mindset was identical. When I assumed that, under the influence of meditation, my brain's beta waves were suppressed, and alpha, theta, and delta had increased, I decided to take the substance. I took 6 puffs. The world began to twist into non-Euclidean fractals, I was flying through a tunnel and eventually found myself in orbit or on the event horizon of a sphere of light. I felt the best, probably in an ideal way. There were no obligations, no heaviness of existence. I was everything and nothing. My involvement in what seemed to me to be the absolute was all-encompassing. Then came the return to reality. Reality began to form again from fractals, I began to re-realize and understand what it means to hear and see. I began to recall to myself who I am and what I am. I was frightened by the fact that I exist again and that existence and obligations weigh heavily on me. Having learned again to understand who I am and what I am, I thought that everything in my life would be fine and that I am in the place where I should be. I realized that I appreciate what I have. I sat on the balcony, smoked tobacco and, for the first time in 10 years, listened to a song with pleasure (BMSS - Endless hallucinations). After that, I noticed that I notice more details in the world. The world became more vivid and colorful. I began to notice more good and more beauty. My overall condition improved by about 20%. It didn't feel like a magic pill, but like a little help. I hope DMT helped my brain open new connections and pathways for serotonin transmission or unlocked those that fell victim to my illness.
Second experience:
The second experience took place on 17.05. In the evening, I realized again that the time had come. I meditated to the same recordings. The mindset for healing was the same. During the recording Wave I: Free Flow Focus 10, I again took about 6 puffs. The world spun into a spiral and my consciousness dissolved. I ceased to be aware of myself, and soon reappeared. It was as if my consciousness had reformatted. I had to re-realize who I am and what I am. Who people are and why I have a mother and a father. What I want and how I am moving towards it. What "knowledge" is and who gods are. What lies beyond the borders of my apartment, whether it is possible to breathe on the balcony and if there is air there. I decided that I needed to try to go beyond the border once more. I turned on the same recording again and, at the moment of readiness, took about 6 puffs. This time, after returning from oblivion and the state of dissolved consciousness, I felt even greater changes in perception. I had to remember and realize everything all over again. The interior of the apartment seemed to load little by little. The "textures" of the furniture were loading like in a game. I began to re-realize the concept of the body and everything mentioned above. Why I am human, why you cannot kill yourself, and what the penalty is for killing another human being. In the end, I remembered everything, wrote down the sensations, and went to sleep.
I do not think that I realized all the secrets of the world, saw god, and became a messiah of other New Age themes. I think that I might have touched either my soul or simply the core of consciousness. My condition has improved, I hope that this will help me cope with my illness and eventually fully recover. I have not stopped going to therapy or taking pills. I am still working on myself, but now with an additional tool that can really, physiologically help me.
I would like to ask you how your journeys went and if you have had anything similar?
I would like to present to you my first experience with DMT.
By a twist of fate, I had a vape with this substance. I do not know the dosage of the substance in the vaporized liquid. My experience with self-control, meditation, and an amanita trip gave me a fairly high level of self-confidence and the belief that I would be able to maintain control until the very end.
First experience:
My first experience with DMT as such was on 22.04.2026. The evening was calm. Meditating (maybe more like inducing self-hypnosis) with the help of the Gateway Experience Wave I: Exploration, Sleep recordings, I realized that the time had come. I began to tune in to the desire to be cured of long-term depression (about 10 years of illness) and to prepare for a resolute and calm journey. After half an hour of listening to the recording, I prepared the vaporizer and lay down again for meditation. This time I used the recording Gateway Experience Wave I: Free Flow Focus 10. The mindset was identical. When I assumed that, under the influence of meditation, my brain's beta waves were suppressed, and alpha, theta, and delta had increased, I decided to take the substance. I took 6 puffs. The world began to twist into non-Euclidean fractals, I was flying through a tunnel and eventually found myself in orbit or on the event horizon of a sphere of light. I felt the best, probably in an ideal way. There were no obligations, no heaviness of existence. I was everything and nothing. My involvement in what seemed to me to be the absolute was all-encompassing. Then came the return to reality. Reality began to form again from fractals, I began to re-realize and understand what it means to hear and see. I began to recall to myself who I am and what I am. I was frightened by the fact that I exist again and that existence and obligations weigh heavily on me. Having learned again to understand who I am and what I am, I thought that everything in my life would be fine and that I am in the place where I should be. I realized that I appreciate what I have. I sat on the balcony, smoked tobacco and, for the first time in 10 years, listened to a song with pleasure (BMSS - Endless hallucinations). After that, I noticed that I notice more details in the world. The world became more vivid and colorful. I began to notice more good and more beauty. My overall condition improved by about 20%. It didn't feel like a magic pill, but like a little help. I hope DMT helped my brain open new connections and pathways for serotonin transmission or unlocked those that fell victim to my illness.
Second experience:
The second experience took place on 17.05. In the evening, I realized again that the time had come. I meditated to the same recordings. The mindset for healing was the same. During the recording Wave I: Free Flow Focus 10, I again took about 6 puffs. The world spun into a spiral and my consciousness dissolved. I ceased to be aware of myself, and soon reappeared. It was as if my consciousness had reformatted. I had to re-realize who I am and what I am. Who people are and why I have a mother and a father. What I want and how I am moving towards it. What "knowledge" is and who gods are. What lies beyond the borders of my apartment, whether it is possible to breathe on the balcony and if there is air there. I decided that I needed to try to go beyond the border once more. I turned on the same recording again and, at the moment of readiness, took about 6 puffs. This time, after returning from oblivion and the state of dissolved consciousness, I felt even greater changes in perception. I had to remember and realize everything all over again. The interior of the apartment seemed to load little by little. The "textures" of the furniture were loading like in a game. I began to re-realize the concept of the body and everything mentioned above. Why I am human, why you cannot kill yourself, and what the penalty is for killing another human being. In the end, I remembered everything, wrote down the sensations, and went to sleep.
I do not think that I realized all the secrets of the world, saw god, and became a messiah of other New Age themes. I think that I might have touched either my soul or simply the core of consciousness. My condition has improved, I hope that this will help me cope with my illness and eventually fully recover. I have not stopped going to therapy or taking pills. I am still working on myself, but now with an additional tool that can really, physiologically help me.
I would like to ask you how your journeys went and if you have had anything similar?
