Greetings...

[brazmo]

So, long story short... Actively used psychedelics in my teens, and they had a huge impact on me, but left me with a lot of questions. Put them aside for most of my adult life, until depression became a recurring problem. Wanted to avoid the SSRI route, so I'm not sure what led me to psilocybin, but it saved me. From those experiences, I started diving deeper, and wanting to understand more both about myself, and the compounds, particularly DMT. After a lot of reading and trying to wrap my brain about what it must be like, my first experiences where very strange... The only logical thing, in my mind, was to start extracting, and being more involved in the process. It has been a really life-changing thing to experience, and something that will be with me forever. I do not proselytize or lay my trip on anyone, and always want to learn more about tek and cultivate experiences with tryptamines, phenethylamines, lysergamides, etc.. There is no goal other than making the best of this experience.

Other than that, late 40s.. Music, nature and dogs are my jams.

 

[Pandora]

brazmo,

Welcome to the Nexus.

Your introduction was a bit of a tease to me. I found myself wanting to know more, wanting you to lay your trip on us. . . .

Also, I freakin LOVED it when I read this:

The only logical thing, in my mind, was to start extracting, and being more involved in the process.

Yes, YES, YES!!

In this era of drug supply contamination, lots of OD poisonings, etc. I feel that the mature psychonault really only has the plants to turn to . . .

And extracting one's own collapses all the thoughts about what's in it, what was done to it, by whom and when. YOU have and are all of the answers.


You write that your experiences were life changing. Are you willing/able to say more about this?

You also say there is no goal other than making the best of this experience. I do not believe there is a requirement and that goal is as good as any other. In particular since you seem to be respectful and interested in extracting your own.

Again, a very warm welcome to the Nexus. I hope to see you around.

-Pandora

 

[brazmo]

Thanks for your response and welcome, Pandora!

When I say "laying my trip", I mean it in a way that I try to avoid being conclusive, or authoritative about personal experience in a psychedelic context. Sharing experiences is wonderful, but I actively avoid assuming that mine is how it is.

"And extracting one's own collapses all the thoughts about what's in it, what was done to it, by whom and when. YOU have and are all of the answers."

Absolutely. On one of my first deep DMT experiences prior to extracting myself, I was absolutely convinced that someone designed the experience for me... That was when I knew I had to do it myself to go through the process and remove any of that confusion.

To expand on the "life changing" experiences DMT and other psychedelics facilitated, I think it fundamentally comes down to two things (among many): The giving in to the unknown and the incontrollable - just letting go of all the things that make what I think of as me. With that, all the framework of what constitutes my "normal" experience be laid bare... it isn't bad or good, it's just a series of reactions to stimuli, and I can afford myself some compassion for myself and others having to deal with it.

Goals are good things, but as far as what I am "doing here", I don't feel there is any goal beyond being good to oneself and others, and doing as many things interesting things as one can before one can't. It may not come across, but I don't take myself too seriously... but I take some things very seriously.

Again, thanks for the welcome.Now I just need more hours in the day to do interesting things!

 

[ABe©eDarian]

Welcome to the Nexus and I hope the changes you're invoking amount to a good dream come true for you.