So what are you suggesting as an alternative, lack of clarity? The essence of meditation is to establish greater presence and clarity, this naturally fosters wisdom and insight over time. The role of psychedelics in helping facilitate this is backed by a lot of research now also.
If you describe meditation as a training in
presence, then I'd agree with you. What I meant is putting a certain goal you want to achieve is egoic. Yes, you are going to train your attention and clarity, but who said that it leads anywhere? True meditation has no goal, because there is nothing to achieve. My conclusion is that we approach it from different ends.
This is a nonsensical statement. Unless you are trying to convey something and the words you have chosen are failing to convey whatever it is you were trying to say. We are all trying to improve and benefit our lives - which includes our day to day life. Exploration of peak experience is a part of this also. What else would we be doing?
It was my second sentence in connection to meditation. What I meant is, if your meditation is just an egoic pursuit of some goal, it leads nowhere. You can develop your life all you want, but it'll just become better and more magical. If you are after a higher goal, you're missing the point. Like the late Trungpa said: you want to attend your own funeral.
The quest is not about you and never was. In simple terms, it's about what lies behind you and makes you seem alive.
In this case the DMT Dimension/Mind of God is very much acting as the guide and teacher itself to activate and show the path and higher states within. This is not of my own efforts, and nor do I have any experience or much prior knowledge of these states aside from a basic conceptual idea, but I have a role to play in practicing and fulfilling the path that is shown and that is down to me. One of the biggest mistakes some people make is thinking psychedelics will do all the work for them but this is far from being the case.
That's where we differ again. Why call it Mind of God? You called me out many times on my bs, but you're doing the same. I've never sent you to read some books either.
See, that's your karmic predicament and experience. Do what you want; I don't really care. You sound very dogmatic, and that's why you've received a mirror-like reflection back. My dogma is better than yours! Not really. Like I said in the end, don't fixate on some absolute ideas. I'd say the only idea worth fixating on in the whole experience is the experiencer itself. And if you fixate long enough on it, you'll see that apart from all else, the subject is not an idea.
In fact the whole experience as it is occurring is quite crazy when I stand back and reflect on it even to me as a fairly experienced psychonaut, which is why I had been sharing it in real time as it unfolds.
I did not expect the - 'carrier wave call' to be occurring at all outside the DMT space which is where this thread began as an observation, not really expecting anyone else to be experiencing the same thing. I did not anticipate it subsequently being interactive with my intent, I did not anticipate it leading to lockout until I purified my virtue, and I did not anticipate it seemingly now introducing some kind of Kundalini energy system and essentially instructing me how to practice to develop further.
I am curious as to where it is unfolding of course and my feeling is if I want to continue this whole psychedelic venture, I better had make efforts to do what it says. It doesn't feel 'fun' it feels serious and that there is a duty here. A calling as such.
I have little knowledge or experience of these types of meditation systems outside of a basic picture. In fact, I am specifically not going to overload on learning about them now with book knowledge because the Harmalas + DMT are showing me a path of cultivation which I am going to adhere to as it presents itself, and I don't want to in a sense jeapordise the data by filling it up with too many conceptual models outside of what it is directly revealing to me and and guiding.
How much this unfolding experience and practice may end up matching established systems remains to be seen, but one thing I have learned is dogmas and established wisdom often doesn't fully match experience of these realities where one attains them oneself.
I like this part. It's the most genuine piece of writing from you, and I can easily feel your passion. Let's agree to disagree and end it here. You have your understanding, and I fully respect it. It's not like my delusions are some absolute truth that you need to refute to be right. I mostly reacted to your confident statements because you were
getting on my turf, but it's more for you to see how it feels to read something like that. No hard feelings at all. I actually enjoy your writings and way of working. Just write me off as a silly guy with a crazy attitude. Peace and Love all the way
