Hello Nexus, I am searching for help!

[searchingforhelp]

Hi Everyone,

I have always been a fan of DMT Nexus and i really hope someone can help me here.

Basically my last few changa trips have made it very clear that my soul is doomed.
Whether this is my mind projecting this or not i dont know but it is very real to me.

I cant fully explain but i'll try. Basically i get the impression that i have angered some entity or my soul and body is owed to them and at some point in the life or beyond i am going to be raped and tortured. I cant figure out whether i have (either in this life or a past) have done something that i will be punished for or that my body and soul was only produced as a kind of prime meat for entities to devour.

Sounds crazy i know but the fact of the matter is at the moment this is my reality. I want to change this.

I have done things i regret in my life but i am fundamentally a good person i cant understand this.

In a few years i will travel to Peru to get involved with Ayahuasca sessions to see if i am mad or if there is something real to this but in the meantime i think i should reach out.

Can anyone advise me on where to start seeking help? would anyone know shamans etc?

I used to make changa and Mod Edit: No discussion of Selling...Read This but it wasnt for profit i always administered people with lots of free DMT and they Removed grams if they wanted to spread it. I wonder if that has anything to do with it.

Thanks for taking the time to read this i would really appreciate some guidance.

 

[Earthwalker]

Hi searchingforhelp I don't what to say except , just for some ppl that did bad stuff in there life maybe shouldn't have dmt at all as this might happen and there's nothing you can do about it !! don't no if this helps at all but hope you find what you're looking for !!

 

[endlessness]

Welcome to the Nexus!

Please check out the following links regarding what you said with your troubles:

FAQ - DMT Frequently Asked Questions and Troubleshooting Guide - DMT-Nexus Wiki

wiki.dmt-nexus.me

and

DMT-Nexus Wiki:Health and Safety - DMT-Nexus Wiki

wiki.dmt-nexus.me

I have no idea about your personal story, but I think that it might be a good idea to avoid psychedelics for the time being and to dedicate to other things in life. Hopefully you have work, a productive hobby, and are eating healthy and regularly exercising. With this, plus a work on your mental attitude through some kind of discipline (meditation, martial arts, yoga, whatever) can definitely help out.



Also, please check the attitude section, as we do not talk about buying/selling stuff here.

Good luck, hope you find what you are looking for!

 

[Mimosa_Man]

I used to make changa and Mod Edit: No discussion of Selling...Read This but it wasnt for profit i always administered people with lots of free DMT and they Removed grams if they wanted to spread it. I wonder if that has anything to do with it.

Thanks for taking the time to read this i would really appreciate some guidance.

It sounds to me like you regret these actions and that your "bad trips" are just your mind trying to help you deal with something you did that you deep down felt/feel was wrong. Face the fact that your trips are a mirror of what is deepest in your mind and you will have better trips if you come to terms with what you've done and forgive yourself. Just my 2cents but hope it helps

 

[Ryusaki]

-soul is doomed
-going to be raped and tortured
-prime meat for entities to devour

I would say this sounds like classic emotional blackmail / psychological warfare of dark entities.
They know how to trigger your guilt and fear.

Invest some time in meditation and watch your mind closely.
Use breathing exercises to strengthen your focus and ability to control your emotions/thoughts.

 

[AlbertKLloyd]

Fear becomes powerless before acceptence.

 

[searchingforhelp]

Thanks alot for the replys guys i really appreciate it. i definitely have lots of things i need to come to terms with in my life. i have started getting involved with meditation its really good but i dont think i am equipped to deal with the stuff in my head to be honest im hoping when i get to peru mother ayahuasca can show me how to fix my mental state.

Thanks again for taking the time to read and reply to my message. all the feedback is helpful.

 

[BigGym]

Im in the same boat search. I cant tell you what or when but I get this feeling I did something very wrong. Panic attacks at night etc. I dont date/ hang out with friends much anymore. Cant stand being at work. No chance in hell of ever bringing a kid into the world. I cant put my finger on it but something is off. My brother once commented that I "forgot how to have fun"

I have no advice, as I cant even figure out the whats and whys, let alone from understanding them formulate a fix. Just wanted to toss out, you're not alone.