SWIM has one big problem right now, it's like SWIM doesn't have private thoughts. The following is an extensive report if you are up for reading it, but the short story is that SWIM knows that their thoughts are being heard by everyone near his presence and doesn't know how to stop them. SWIM has tried meditation but when SWIM tries to read a book or read an assignment in class, SWIM hears other people telling him to shut up.
The subject at hand has taken a few drugs, but more specifically ayahuasca. In that experience SWIM eventually broke through to the other side and at one point realized that we are all one being in a way; we are always connected to each other and god.
The problem didn't start then. It started a year later when SWIM went through a bad experience which resulted in several days spent thinking, barely eating, sleeping and staying confined in a house. SWIM was smoking pot at the time as it would help calming them down and sleep occasionally.
After a few days/weeks (not sure how long) SWIM had smoked some pot and after coming back down, they were unable to stop thinking and kept wishing to leave this place, as in the physical reality. At one point it felt like SWIM had a heart attack and then SWIM was lost in space. They still were here on Earth and was able to move around, but their mind was in space; SWIM was very high at that point.
After that night SWIM had frequent panic attacks and night terrors but the worst of it was that SWIM never had private thoughts again. Everyone would hear him and people would constantly comment that SWIM would be screaming their thoughts when really SWIM would only want to think to themselves.
SWIM has had this issue for over a year now and it is getting progressively worse as SWIM is basically avoiding as much social contact as possible, but now its getting to the point of wanting to go somewhere in the desert just so that there would be no one for miles around.
SWIM doesn't know what to do, SWIM is positive thoughts can be communicated telepathically because SWIM has found out that we are all one being if you go far enough in space; therefore we are able to communicate with anyone at will. The problem is also that SWIM has spent a lot of time alone growing up, so SWIM would always talk to themselves and imagine their friends and family were around when SWIM would talk to themselves. Now the habit became strong and even when SWIM thinks they are just thinking to themselves, they hear someone else say shut up or comment on SWIM's thoughts.
Has anyone experienced this? It is getting too intense for SWIM when all they want are some private thoughts so that they may actually do something with their life and not spend their life in a van in the middle of nowhere. SWIM is asking this community over other communities because this community has experience in DMT which is the drug that may have caused the problems for SWIM.
SWIM has also thought that a second trip with ayahuasca (no other space trips were taken since that one) would help as the first trip SWIM was alone and didn't know they would need a chacapa to disperse the evil energy that comes out of a person under ayahuasca.
The subject at hand has taken a few drugs, but more specifically ayahuasca. In that experience SWIM eventually broke through to the other side and at one point realized that we are all one being in a way; we are always connected to each other and god.
The problem didn't start then. It started a year later when SWIM went through a bad experience which resulted in several days spent thinking, barely eating, sleeping and staying confined in a house. SWIM was smoking pot at the time as it would help calming them down and sleep occasionally.
After a few days/weeks (not sure how long) SWIM had smoked some pot and after coming back down, they were unable to stop thinking and kept wishing to leave this place, as in the physical reality. At one point it felt like SWIM had a heart attack and then SWIM was lost in space. They still were here on Earth and was able to move around, but their mind was in space; SWIM was very high at that point.
After that night SWIM had frequent panic attacks and night terrors but the worst of it was that SWIM never had private thoughts again. Everyone would hear him and people would constantly comment that SWIM would be screaming their thoughts when really SWIM would only want to think to themselves.
SWIM has had this issue for over a year now and it is getting progressively worse as SWIM is basically avoiding as much social contact as possible, but now its getting to the point of wanting to go somewhere in the desert just so that there would be no one for miles around.
SWIM doesn't know what to do, SWIM is positive thoughts can be communicated telepathically because SWIM has found out that we are all one being if you go far enough in space; therefore we are able to communicate with anyone at will. The problem is also that SWIM has spent a lot of time alone growing up, so SWIM would always talk to themselves and imagine their friends and family were around when SWIM would talk to themselves. Now the habit became strong and even when SWIM thinks they are just thinking to themselves, they hear someone else say shut up or comment on SWIM's thoughts.
Has anyone experienced this? It is getting too intense for SWIM when all they want are some private thoughts so that they may actually do something with their life and not spend their life in a van in the middle of nowhere. SWIM is asking this community over other communities because this community has experience in DMT which is the drug that may have caused the problems for SWIM.
SWIM has also thought that a second trip with ayahuasca (no other space trips were taken since that one) would help as the first trip SWIM was alone and didn't know they would need a chacapa to disperse the evil energy that comes out of a person under ayahuasca.
