I loved the back and forth with Doodazzle and Redguard. Thoroughly entertaining and thought-provoking. I hope neither party took actual offense from each other. I thought it was a very useful dialogue.
Hyperspace Fool said:
Word!
@Hyperspace Fool, It's 8 am here and i coulden't sleep this night since your post is recent i'm just gonna go and take this opportunity to ask you some question i've been wanting to ask you for some time.
I hooked up with a demon in a DMT trip. It is not relevant to my question but it is an interesting experience i'd like to share;
When i was conversing with a very friendly being on dmt it announced she had to go and i felt the presence fading away into the distance. The meeting was so good and healing, so i mentally reached out to her with a kind of yearning for her to stay. What i got back was a feeling of motherly pain. Because she has nurtured me in this way and the entity herself was having trouble coping with leaving me to explore the world all by myself.
That's what i got. I accepted my fate and decided to accept she was leaving. So i turned off the light to go to sleep. As soon as i turned off the light a dark entity rushed into my room seemingly from my open window. It kind of looked like a black spermcell and it jolted right into my heart. What i saw when i looked towards my chest was a pink pulsating energy-object representing my heart organ. This entity was digging a hole as if fleeing from something and seeking refugee inside my heart.
At first I thought it was the motherly good entity that was coming back for more conversation. So i opened myself up fully and asked in a very vulnerable matter; "Please look into my heart and see what i need to fix myself up". But when the only thing i got back was something like, "FEED FEED FEED" i realized something was up so i started to mentally block this vulnerable state.
I conversed with the entity and asked it's origin. I got images of a dark river with evil entities. This entity feared this place intensely because it was filled with stronger beings giving him a hard time. Out of morale and pure curiosity I decided to let the entity stay in my heart. As soon as i made that choice i began intensely sucking in oxygen from the air. As if the entity was breathing with me but more intensely. I kind of was the entity too and could relate to how it feels as well. A greedy parasitic monster (but also cute and beautiful). It is recurring, weeks later i had an experience where the entity popped up when i was vulnerable and in a way steals some of my breathe.
Long after the active portion of dmt left my system i was still conversing with the entity. It mentioned being a human before. I made a deal with him that i was going to talk to him in dreams. I said if he misbehaves i will ask light beings to throw him back in the abyss. About 8 hours later i fell asleep and something else had control over my dream. Something very external was trying to scare the living shit out of me. I think in my dream a magician (Symbol for Magician, illusionist; An artist that does tricks that surpass one's own knowledge I.E. A spiritual being playing tricks on me in dreams i never deemt possible)
It was pissed off that i still haven't talked to him and made some sort of plan. I never experienced this sort of non-control in dreams ever. I rarely have had nightmares except since i started taking DMT and meeting dark entities. All this had me feeling weird and out of balance for days after the experience.
So.. As for my question (lol)
@Hyperspace Fool, Not sure again what i am asking but i've seen you mention in this forum that you can help people get rid of nightmares.
I have been trying to get lucid in dreams, i have dozens of ideas but i need to be in the dream-state for them to have any effect whatsoever. But what can i do while awake to provoke this from happening and prevent nightmares?
Also ask for a friend of mine who suffers from trauma, but i think that is a different kind of nightmare. It is entirely based on one's own fears. Although i have dreamed of this friend and did recognize an external source to be the culprit for her nightmares. But it's a dream. I don't know.