Hello Nexans.
Nihilistic thoughts have plagued my mind for the last couple of years. I keep asking myself, "Is this all there is". The knowledge I've researched on DMT has given me hope, perhaps there is something more than just material existence and I guess that's why I'm pulled towards the experience.
I feel like a complete outcast whenever I go out, like everyone is a zombie or machine refusing to search for truth. Do these people who live amongst us ever stop, and ask themselves "what am I doing, and why am I doing it". Society feels hypnotic sometimes. There's too much following, replicating other people, trying to be this. How many people stop though, and ask what is "this". This makes relating to ordinary people much more different. Even if some religious people are deluded, I feel at least they are acknowledging the questions I am trying to find answers to.
The current western intellectuals that I looked up to have lost my interest. How many of them have tried DMT? how many of them change their perceptions or states of consciousness? how accurate is their perception of reality anyways? The only way to find out if you're stuck in a dream is to firstly become aware that you are dreaming, and then to find a way to wake up. How many of these intellectuals have claimed not to be dreaming, yet never tried to wake up?
There's no point in passively rejecting an experience like that. Curiosity is natural. Any scientific mind that is serious about discovering what is cannot be narrow minded. I must consider the limits of my current perception, I must consider that I only see a puzzle piece of the picture.
It is quite amazing that technology has very recently allowed us to share information like this. I am grateful for the nexus and all it has to offer.
Nihilistic thoughts have plagued my mind for the last couple of years. I keep asking myself, "Is this all there is". The knowledge I've researched on DMT has given me hope, perhaps there is something more than just material existence and I guess that's why I'm pulled towards the experience.
I feel like a complete outcast whenever I go out, like everyone is a zombie or machine refusing to search for truth. Do these people who live amongst us ever stop, and ask themselves "what am I doing, and why am I doing it". Society feels hypnotic sometimes. There's too much following, replicating other people, trying to be this. How many people stop though, and ask what is "this". This makes relating to ordinary people much more different. Even if some religious people are deluded, I feel at least they are acknowledging the questions I am trying to find answers to.
The current western intellectuals that I looked up to have lost my interest. How many of them have tried DMT? how many of them change their perceptions or states of consciousness? how accurate is their perception of reality anyways? The only way to find out if you're stuck in a dream is to firstly become aware that you are dreaming, and then to find a way to wake up. How many of these intellectuals have claimed not to be dreaming, yet never tried to wake up?
There's no point in passively rejecting an experience like that. Curiosity is natural. Any scientific mind that is serious about discovering what is cannot be narrow minded. I must consider the limits of my current perception, I must consider that I only see a puzzle piece of the picture.
It is quite amazing that technology has very recently allowed us to share information like this. I am grateful for the nexus and all it has to offer.
