d-T-r
Rising Star
Journey Report ;
2g approximate liberty caps, with some ground ginger added, and lemon-tek'd
Ingestion - 9.45 pm
Setting : Bedroom, candles, warm bed , cosmic tree
So last night i finally ate the shrooms i had bought maybe 10 months ago or something ridiculous like that.there were times where they were meant to be eaten, but for whatever reason it just never happened.
Anyway, I soaked maybe just over 2 grams of liberties in lemon juice for about 20 minutes, added some orange juice and drank part of the concoction every few minutes until it was gone.
Put on 'wonders of the universe' just to set a tone during the come up.
Before long, my apprehension and pre-trip anxiety was fading away as now my body had started to become massively light and heavy as it sometimes does.
I felt like i was in safe hands, and before long , i really actually was in safe hands. By this point i had gotten under my bed covers as my feet were cold. My duvet was supporting my head and this quickly turned into me actually being in the lap and arms of a archetype mothering female presence.
Almost back in the womb? perfect equilibrium, supported and nurtured, from all angles.
The body load feels amazing- definitely embryonic almost and i feel immensely care-free as mushroom-space slowly started emerging around me.
My ceiling is tiled in random tesalating shapes (in real life) so this ,with the candle light, and green reflecting hues from my curtains, naturally started to take the form of a very dynamic and fertile tree, with many of the 'leaves' slowly parting just slighty to reveal just a sneak peak of what lied beyond it.
After admiring the scenery and just soaking up the experience for some time, i knew i had some lessons to learn and some insight to apporach.
To search for light you must look in the dark, i said to myself.
I pulled the covers completely over my head.
Complete darkness, void-less voids. Gridded matrix of intelligent 'design' and 'un-design' emerging but it meant 'nothing' , but then nothing was the whole point.
I had the direct realization that the universe and all life values non-existence, or the space between existing and not, just as much as the time it spends during it existance.
Each is a direct result of the other- after enough 'offline time', energy culminates and gathers momentum and 'life', must manifest.
Emerge from the covers...Sit up and, Existence
Yet the same sentiment is felt here too. Energy culminates, gathers momentum and friction to react with its self to form more life, yet even life it's self embraces the natural cycle of time for it to one day ,not be. Life does not mind 'moments' of lifelessness as it is the lifelessness that creates the energy to create Dis-order, for order to emerge from it.
Thanks
So now what ?
'now' ?...what?
I hold the thought that i need to take something back from this. Something that applies 'here' in daily life and not just in universal patterns that are beyond my daily scale.
But The 'Scale' is relative!
Everything must be reduced to its lowest common denominator, to reveal the face under the mask.
Mushroom waves. Definitely feeling the fungal element. Body and brain start to drift and i sink back down.
Passive!
Stop being so Passive!
Look around you, focus!
I realize the 'mushroom' is right. After having spent so much time in the female caring prescene, and fertile pre-existence state, i realize i have become too passive and need to assert my own power.
Equal spoon-ful's of Yin and Yang please
☯
I sit up and try again to verbalize what i think i am trying to learn.
I,...I...I want to know how to ... i. want to remember the...
Words are hard, yet i need to coat these concepts in words to refer to them at a later time dont i?
Nope. Remember the feeling. words aren't the lowest common denominator. the feeling/concept it's self is. pre-label. pre-boundary.
Hands.
Power. Potential.
I watch the energy around my hands and i gradually make them touch.
Circuits.
I feel myself slipping deeper into the mushroom trance again and i'm now sitting cross legged, with my head on the bed looking back up and into my hands.
Upside down.
Downside up.
Hypnotizing, yet no vantage point can be seen here. Gain control. Sit back up. Embrace.
The remainder of the journey is filled with self contemplation and personal introspection, and filled with deep empathy towards the people in my life and the actions I need to do more of to strengthen the bonds and foundations between myself and others so that they can do the same, and so that my own 'stability' is built upon too.
All in all a very educating experience. Considering its been a fair few years since i've been graced with mushroom wisdom, i'm happy to have such a warm welcome back and look forward to sharing the experience with my girl next time
I probably would of ate some more if i had them but only had a small amount but i feel the lemon definately helped. by about 1 - 1.30 am i think was just about baseline.
A lot of the things that were presented to me / from me, were all things i had already understood intellectually and conceptually, but directly feeling the implications of such universal laws and events inside me, defiantly helped place some more clarity on to my perception.
Now to keep constructive,positive and productive.
2g approximate liberty caps, with some ground ginger added, and lemon-tek'd
Ingestion - 9.45 pm
Setting : Bedroom, candles, warm bed , cosmic tree
So last night i finally ate the shrooms i had bought maybe 10 months ago or something ridiculous like that.there were times where they were meant to be eaten, but for whatever reason it just never happened.
Anyway, I soaked maybe just over 2 grams of liberties in lemon juice for about 20 minutes, added some orange juice and drank part of the concoction every few minutes until it was gone.
Put on 'wonders of the universe' just to set a tone during the come up.
Before long, my apprehension and pre-trip anxiety was fading away as now my body had started to become massively light and heavy as it sometimes does.
I felt like i was in safe hands, and before long , i really actually was in safe hands. By this point i had gotten under my bed covers as my feet were cold. My duvet was supporting my head and this quickly turned into me actually being in the lap and arms of a archetype mothering female presence.
Almost back in the womb? perfect equilibrium, supported and nurtured, from all angles.
The body load feels amazing- definitely embryonic almost and i feel immensely care-free as mushroom-space slowly started emerging around me.
My ceiling is tiled in random tesalating shapes (in real life) so this ,with the candle light, and green reflecting hues from my curtains, naturally started to take the form of a very dynamic and fertile tree, with many of the 'leaves' slowly parting just slighty to reveal just a sneak peak of what lied beyond it.
After admiring the scenery and just soaking up the experience for some time, i knew i had some lessons to learn and some insight to apporach.
To search for light you must look in the dark, i said to myself.
I pulled the covers completely over my head.
Complete darkness, void-less voids. Gridded matrix of intelligent 'design' and 'un-design' emerging but it meant 'nothing' , but then nothing was the whole point.
I had the direct realization that the universe and all life values non-existence, or the space between existing and not, just as much as the time it spends during it existance.
Each is a direct result of the other- after enough 'offline time', energy culminates and gathers momentum and 'life', must manifest.
Emerge from the covers...Sit up and, Existence
Yet the same sentiment is felt here too. Energy culminates, gathers momentum and friction to react with its self to form more life, yet even life it's self embraces the natural cycle of time for it to one day ,not be. Life does not mind 'moments' of lifelessness as it is the lifelessness that creates the energy to create Dis-order, for order to emerge from it.
Thanks
So now what ?
'now' ?...what?
I hold the thought that i need to take something back from this. Something that applies 'here' in daily life and not just in universal patterns that are beyond my daily scale.
But The 'Scale' is relative!
Everything must be reduced to its lowest common denominator, to reveal the face under the mask.
Mushroom waves. Definitely feeling the fungal element. Body and brain start to drift and i sink back down.
Passive!
Stop being so Passive!
Look around you, focus!
I realize the 'mushroom' is right. After having spent so much time in the female caring prescene, and fertile pre-existence state, i realize i have become too passive and need to assert my own power.
Equal spoon-ful's of Yin and Yang please
☯
I sit up and try again to verbalize what i think i am trying to learn.
I,...I...I want to know how to ... i. want to remember the...
Words are hard, yet i need to coat these concepts in words to refer to them at a later time dont i?
Nope. Remember the feeling. words aren't the lowest common denominator. the feeling/concept it's self is. pre-label. pre-boundary.
Hands.
Power. Potential.
I watch the energy around my hands and i gradually make them touch.
Circuits.
I feel myself slipping deeper into the mushroom trance again and i'm now sitting cross legged, with my head on the bed looking back up and into my hands.
Upside down.
Downside up.
Hypnotizing, yet no vantage point can be seen here. Gain control. Sit back up. Embrace.
The remainder of the journey is filled with self contemplation and personal introspection, and filled with deep empathy towards the people in my life and the actions I need to do more of to strengthen the bonds and foundations between myself and others so that they can do the same, and so that my own 'stability' is built upon too.
All in all a very educating experience. Considering its been a fair few years since i've been graced with mushroom wisdom, i'm happy to have such a warm welcome back and look forward to sharing the experience with my girl next time
I probably would of ate some more if i had them but only had a small amount but i feel the lemon definately helped. by about 1 - 1.30 am i think was just about baseline.
A lot of the things that were presented to me / from me, were all things i had already understood intellectually and conceptually, but directly feeling the implications of such universal laws and events inside me, defiantly helped place some more clarity on to my perception.
Now to keep constructive,positive and productive.
