I've dealt with depression and anxiety for many years (I'm currently 27, and I remember being depressed when I was 8 ). I'm finally overcoming my issues and crawling out of what feels like the darkest cave in the universe.
In my opinion, MDMA would be about the worst possible thing you could experiment with. You'll go from feeling extremely down, to happy, to being more down than you were before. I think MDMA may help some people "remember" what it's like to be happy again, but as Joedirt put so well:
most depression, is self inflicted via substance abuse, lack of exercise, diet, and pathological thought processes.
I don't know what your depression stems from, but I personally feel DMT, harmalas, exercise, and cleaning up your diet are your best option. I used breakthrough doses of FB to overcome my sense that life was meaningless. I then used aya and changa to overcome the deep emotional issues and anger I had buried for years and years. Exercise serves as an outlet for anxious thoughts, and a clean diet is something you can continually work on, which will make you feel better physically and emotionally as you feel yourself improving on a daily basis. Talk to Jamie for a few minutes in chat and you'll realize that you could spend the next five years trying to improve your diet and you're still eating garbage!
I personally feel Depression is one of the worst things a human can possibly experience, and that the way out is the painful path of using DMT and harmalas to discover, diagnose, and eliminate deep seated emotional issues. I think MDMA would only serve to mask issues and prevent them from being dealt with.
I wish you many blessings. Spending more time here is also one of the best way to ensure you are taking steps to improve yourself mentally, physically, and spiritually.
You'll get through this! You got friends and family by your side. Peace and Happy Journeys
