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We need to use some system here, though. In different philosophies, they change the definition of basic concepts. Just to have a civil dialogue, we need to define reality, thought, awareness, and so on. Or at least state the system of knowledge that you use. It's so complex with us humans.
blig-blug's Ayahuasca experience log
XXI log update: Dose: 230mg harmala freebase (from Rue) @ T-00:30 + 45mg DMT freebase @ T+00:00. Started at 6:30 AM. I'm going back to my weekly aya/pharma schedule. This was supposed to be a re-introductory experience to get back into it, as I had resistance to it due to more time than usual...
Some years ago, I realized that this all-seeing eye or God watches me through my own eyes. There is no hiding because this presence is always here.
However, it's not something other or alien, but a deeper part of me. After that insight, I stopped hiding from myself. Occasionally, I would feel like someone was watching me, but then I realized that it was me![]()
Oh, hello me. Me, me, me. What a pickle we've gotten ourselves into.
Anyway, sorry for the digression, I hate it when I interrupt myself.
Great thread. Self discovery really warms my heart. So many parallels that it can't be coincidence.
Oh wow - I missed @northape's quote that you were responding to. I noticed this same thing when I was a teenager. Maybe I ought to have paid more attention to the idea, although forgetting may have been as much a part of the experience of life, just as I've often forgotten that many of my previous, er, behavioral aberrations were part of an uncontrolled and distinctly unsystematic psychosocial experiment.
In that sense, it's hard to say what difference an ongoing remembering of any of this may have made. There is little that can be changed about the past besides its interpretation.
You know, I'm noticing more and more people waking up to this. Even people you wouldn't expect, though they might describe it using different terms. I guess you could write it off as a quirk of human psychology but I don't think so. Maybe McKenna was right about his spiritual singularity.
EDIT: @Transform and @northape Hey, question for you guys: when you realized what was happening, did you feel like you could exert some control? Or did it feel more like you were watching a movie?
More and more, I feel that this whole life is out of my control. The voice inside just says that I can change something, but it doesn't look that way at all. I just watch this life happen; my character does some stuff, and the voice keeps saying, "I did it." When I connect with the awareness that knows and live from that perspective, life starts to flow, and stuff doesn't catch me that easily. Sure, strong emotions consume me and I forget about what's what for a moment, but like after a deep dive, I come back to the surface and breathe again.
Life just flows. What is that space of knowing where it all happens? Who is asking?
Yes, I meant internal monologue.You mean your internal monologue not the awareness right?
I'd agree with you. Intent seems to be of a deeper order than thought. It's more like attention, meaning a function of the mind. I don't know if you necessarily need any thoughts to execute your intent. Flow states are a good example where your intent leads to action, and any thoughts would be counterproductive.There seems to be a difference between thought and intent. Intent seems to come from somewhere else (the awareness you speak of?) while thoughts are executed by the body to carry out that intent.
We need to use some system here, though. In different philosophies, they change the definition of basic concepts. Just to have a civil dialogue, we need to define reality, thought, awareness, and so on. Or at least state the system of knowledge that you use. It's so complex with us humans.
For me, intuition is silent. It translates into words by some internal process, but the message itself is complete on arrival. It's more akin to pure knowing, and I create stories around it later on.Not sure, but intuition seems to come from the same place as the intent. Whenever you confuse intent/intuition with your thoughts the results tend to be suboptimal.![]()



