You see, its very easy to have all these theories and write from one's armchair, and it all makes sense. But once you travel to very different countries and get faced with contrasts, once you fall in love and have your heart broken, once a close-one dies, once real sickness comes, once you have difficulty finding a job and paying the bills, once you face some kind of real moral dillema, once a real ayahuasca slaps you in the face, all those theories go out the window, and you see the nakedness of human experience, and you see how you are just a spiritual child, still crawling in the beginning of one's path.