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My life From Materialism To Spirituality

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ZonSun

ZonSun

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Hello everyone, I am ZonSun, this is my first post.


I hope that you could spare your precious time to read this.

Before my transformation I was a success oriented person, all my life was directed to being successful and getting money and fame.
Things started when my mother died, when I was just 9 years old, at that point I hated everything in the world, I hated my father, I hated my sister, I even hated God.
I started doing bad stuff like stealing and smoking at a very young age. My father was an alcoholic and my sister was 2 years younger than me, so I had no one to educate me.

After a while I started using cannabis, and here is the point where everything turned in a way that I still to this day can not understand.
Weed made me a different person.At this point the only thing that I was interested was inner peace and being something special(finding my true self)(still ego driven). I started reading spiritual books and watching spiritual teachers online, I slowly started to become fascinated on all the things we are capable of. I learnt about enlightenment (Moksha, Nirvana, ect).
And so I started seeking inner wisdom and the truth of life, I wanted to become one with everything and with God.
So I started meditating, I just meditated for like 10 to 30 minutes,(sometimes high, sometimes sober), and started to get insight. Especially when I was intoxicated I became very philosophical and questioned everything.
And one night something very very amazing happened, I smoked a bowl of weed and started meditating, I entered a trance like state where I stayed that way for more than 5 hours. When I came to earth again I couldn't remember much, but it was the most joyful and blissful feeling that I had. it felt like I just met God, like the key to the wisdom of the whole universe was given to me. JUST AMAZING!

So that was when I realized the psychedelic properties of weed, and started researching on other psychedelics, I was fascinated by them, especially the reports about DMT and since then I am eager to try it and explore that familiar world where I have stepped into with weed, once again.

I came here to broaden my knowledge about psychedelics and become ready to embark into the journey of spiritual development, by helping others and by helping myself I believe I can be a good part of this wonderful community
 
Welcome, ZonSun!

Excellent introduction, and sounds like you are doing just fine on the path...:thumb_up:

I'm sure you'll be very happy here...learn, share, expand indeed!
 
Namaste ZonSun,

we are already set up perfectly in every now, everything else, especially about psychedelics, you can find in the depth of the nexus.

Happy travels, tseuq
 
I'm the Nick Sands type concerning weed: it spoils your tryptamine performances.
Not exactly a phrase you make friends with but cant care less.
:twisted:

Hope your patch may be full of changing change ;)
 
I don't use weed anymore, I am leaning into tryptamines. As weed started being not for me after that experience, it just changed.
 
Jees said:
I'm the Nick Sands type concerning weed: it spoils your tryptamine performances.
Not exactly a phrase you make friends with but cant care less.
:twisted:

Hope your patch may be full of changing change ;)
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Perhaps smoking, but not long ago, I was in California and I drank ayahuasca while on edibles. I was impressed by the effects.
 
I personally think that weed can be a good and a bad thing. I truly believe it makes you show your inner self and it brings to light things that you want to hide, this is why it is good and bad.
I also am certain that it increases the placebo force so if you are certain that you are socially awkward it will make you that way.

But it's psychedelic properties can not be neglected. If people would use it in other ways not just to get high. But anyways I don't smoke anymore just because I relate bad things with it.
 
But no worries, I was actually thinking I should change mine anyway for some strange reason. This just gave me a "real" reason to do it.

Welcome to the Nexus
 
No man don't worry, thank you for the welcoming. I see you don't have an avatar anymore what happened.
 
Wonderfuly written, welcome!

Weed had the same effect on me. A new group of friends and the introduction of weed into my life changed me as a person. I experimented with it, had a period where I smoked daily, had great and not so great experience. I still smoke occasionally but I'm at a point now where I feel that the sober state is more interesting and balanced. I'll probably keep using it once in a while, but I'm trying to approach it more like I do psychedelics. Set, setting etc
 
After this experience weed I can't smoke weed anymore. Now it's psychedelic properties are waaay more enhanced, if the set and settings are wrong, I have a terrible reaction to weed now.


Anyways here is part 2 or a whole overview of my life for those who are interested. And all the detailed materialistic seeking behavior I had, I need to elaborate more on the change maybe I'll do a part three but anyways here is the link MY WHOLE LIFE: From Materialism to Spirituality Part 2
 
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