SuperMarioKiev
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So recently I was having some issues with burning my spice and whatnot. I made the machine and it works magnitudes better although I am having an issue. I realize this is probably a headspace issue as sometimes I am determined to breakthrough and I actually do while sometimes I take a single hit and immediately put the machine down and lay in bed.
It seems to make me really sleepy sometimes while others I feel like my soul wants to enthusiastically jump out of my body.
I got really close to breaking through and it looked like my desk was turning into Aztec style what I can only describe as "Aztec style thing" and then the room started turning into this deep purple fractal and it started to vanish but It seemed like my machine was running out of spice. I load it up for a few hits and then hit it a couple times and the one time I was in the right headspace it just happened to run out. At that point I was on my 2nd hit and it just ran out on me and while sober enough to take a hit I was not sober enough to reload it. After I reloaded it and hit it I was immediately hit with negative thoughts so I didn't want to push it and risk a bad experience.
A few minutes ago I took a small hit and immediately went "no this doesn't feel right". This seems to be something that happens more often than not. I will be in what I think is the correct headspace. Feeling curious and a desire to know what lies beyond only to immediately be brought down by a feeling of it not being right. Sometimes when this happens I will lay in my bed and what feels like a entity will come and stick needles in me and check on me. It feels much like a nurse. The needles it sticks in me don't hurt and I can almost feel a sense of them watching over me.
This is the only entity I have encountered so close. It felt like it was right beside me yet infinitely far away like the needles didn't pierce my body and only my soul. I can't say much yet but I seem to really enjoy just taking a small hit and laying in bed. Especially in the dark it enhances the visuals although it still feels like my room. When I trip with lights on I feel as if there is a sweet spot that lets me see into another universe that lies within my eyelids. Not too open not too close and I can see weird visions.
I plan to breakthrough but I will not force it so I don't know how long it will be until then. I will keep this log updated as I experience more things.
It seems to make me really sleepy sometimes while others I feel like my soul wants to enthusiastically jump out of my body.
I got really close to breaking through and it looked like my desk was turning into Aztec style what I can only describe as "Aztec style thing" and then the room started turning into this deep purple fractal and it started to vanish but It seemed like my machine was running out of spice. I load it up for a few hits and then hit it a couple times and the one time I was in the right headspace it just happened to run out. At that point I was on my 2nd hit and it just ran out on me and while sober enough to take a hit I was not sober enough to reload it. After I reloaded it and hit it I was immediately hit with negative thoughts so I didn't want to push it and risk a bad experience.
A few minutes ago I took a small hit and immediately went "no this doesn't feel right". This seems to be something that happens more often than not. I will be in what I think is the correct headspace. Feeling curious and a desire to know what lies beyond only to immediately be brought down by a feeling of it not being right. Sometimes when this happens I will lay in my bed and what feels like a entity will come and stick needles in me and check on me. It feels much like a nurse. The needles it sticks in me don't hurt and I can almost feel a sense of them watching over me.
This is the only entity I have encountered so close. It felt like it was right beside me yet infinitely far away like the needles didn't pierce my body and only my soul. I can't say much yet but I seem to really enjoy just taking a small hit and laying in bed. Especially in the dark it enhances the visuals although it still feels like my room. When I trip with lights on I feel as if there is a sweet spot that lets me see into another universe that lies within my eyelids. Not too open not too close and I can see weird visions.
I plan to breakthrough but I will not force it so I don't know how long it will be until then. I will keep this log updated as I experience more things.
