Hello
I'm pretty sure I went undiagnosed with Bipolar disorder for at least 8 years now, which would explain many of my irrational moods and actions, also confirmed many times by other people. My symptoms vary, mostly with seasonal changes. During summer I'm hypeactive, sleeping less (this week I got 10 hours of sleep so far), with racing thoughts, chain smoking, anxiety and so on. During winter I'm depressed and suicidal, rarely leaving my room, sleeping all day, breaking all of previously formed relationships.
Now I realize my experimentation with psychedelics might have been a form of subconscious self medication, which helped to some extent, but I had to give up tryptamines for good, probably. I'm still recovering from massive amounts of Psilohuasca I was doing for a year or two. At first it was great, but after some time it made my mania turn into psychosis. Salvia had great effect but is not long lasting in the smoked form, and weed just makes me numb after a week of every day smoking. Pharmaceuticals are out of the equation for me. Would like to find a good herbal remedy for both mania and depression.
I was thinking of Iboga or Rue microdosing, also heard Kratom is good but I get addicted to stuff very very fast, so it may not be the best option.
If you guys can shed some light on the subject, would be great.
Thank you
I'm pretty sure I went undiagnosed with Bipolar disorder for at least 8 years now, which would explain many of my irrational moods and actions, also confirmed many times by other people. My symptoms vary, mostly with seasonal changes. During summer I'm hypeactive, sleeping less (this week I got 10 hours of sleep so far), with racing thoughts, chain smoking, anxiety and so on. During winter I'm depressed and suicidal, rarely leaving my room, sleeping all day, breaking all of previously formed relationships.
Now I realize my experimentation with psychedelics might have been a form of subconscious self medication, which helped to some extent, but I had to give up tryptamines for good, probably. I'm still recovering from massive amounts of Psilohuasca I was doing for a year or two. At first it was great, but after some time it made my mania turn into psychosis. Salvia had great effect but is not long lasting in the smoked form, and weed just makes me numb after a week of every day smoking. Pharmaceuticals are out of the equation for me. Would like to find a good herbal remedy for both mania and depression.
I was thinking of Iboga or Rue microdosing, also heard Kratom is good but I get addicted to stuff very very fast, so it may not be the best option.
If you guys can shed some light on the subject, would be great.
Thank you