Newbie initiated

[ElenaDakini]

Hello everyone, my name is Elena, and I had my first DMT experience just a few days ago. Since my brain was trying to make sense of the experience, I started googling on the topic. I was giggling throughout the whole trip and I don't remember much,except that I saw myself presented to me as a Hindu goddess Kali. My bf remember even less, he saw teddy bears)
My main interest is to stay tuned to the divinity of life and to help people to become aware of it. I want to learn from everyone I can meet on my path, I want to feel life intensely and purely. I practice yoga and it keeps me sane and happy as well as allows me to explore my consciousness. I love to dance. I believe that solid matter is nothing but music with certain frequency. I respect the experience which substances bring around and I believe they should be used as medicine. Meditation is the safest way to go as far as you want to. I vote for "naturally high" states my intention for this year is to stay present with my breath. I am about to try ayahuasca. I hope I will be able to integrate all experience of alternative states in my normal life... Yes, this Is my main question that made me look for a community like this: what did you learn from that experiences and how to integrate them?
My rational mind is thirsty for explanations.. I guess I will go and enjoy silent sitting (meditation) for awhile.
Wish you to be full of hope and never stop be amazed by the wonders of every day life!
Namaste

 

[cosmicsailor]

welcome i also love to dance and also a strong believer of "natural highs",i believe it carries more weight in a conversation with someone than talking to them about psychedelics. As to your question about what i have learned from my exp with dmt and how i integrated in to my life, My second time smoking dmt i went "somewhere" and met what i call the cosmic mother. She took me back in time to when i was "a god" and had chosen to become me, i reflected on this and now every time i have a negative experience i look back and remember i choose this path and it has become easier to brush them off as just part of being human.

 

[ElenaDakini]

Thank you for your reply, cosmic sailor. You reminded me how my friend, who is also very into yoga, told me when I was nervous before dance audition: " You have created this experience yourself. Enjoy it" meaning that I am the one who chose to experience this audition maybe to learn a lesson or something. Reminding that life is just a play and I shouldn't indentify myself too much with the role I play, because in this case I may forget that I am also a director at some level. I think all these creatures lives inside of us and sometimes we need a little help to undo our everyday patterns so we can access knowledge directly. Healing experiences. Does it matter if it is real or nor? What it is real? What it is not real? I think that psychedelics make us to wonder and think otherwise we would stop asking questions and this is gonna be the end of a true human life. I don't want to be a brainless piece of flesh watching TV. Never stop asking questions sometimes with no hope to get an answer