hi
@Hugin sometimes i miss that shift of perspective that weed can give but how can you do that (smoking a little and hearing that inner voice) without falling back into addiction?
moreover the last times i smoked before quitting i no longer felt like i was having a new perspective on things but instead i felt like the plant was taking control of my mind
Hi
@CosmicRiver love your nickname!
That inner voice is just myself reflecting my behaviour it’s internal monologue, a stream of thoughts, feelings. That humbleness and another perspective weed gives me personally.
Now I’m more aware of myself and don’t need weed to access that self reflection. It was just an experience I had when I smoked weed again after along time off in that moment. There were a lot of changes in my life I was going through at that time quitting habits on all kinds of drugs and turning around my reckless lifestyle that effected my behaviour as I described. Also probably just overcoming withdrawals and internal battle I was dealing with at the time turning my back on my reckless mad hatter lifestyle.
You don’t have the same experience and that’s perfectly normal we all have different personality traits, views, beliefs, experiences.
I believe addiction is something you choose not a disease. Addiction is defined by no control and withdrawals if you overcome withdrawals you overcome the addiction. It comes down to control, how much you want it. And will power, mindset to not fall into past habits. If you are an addict you lie to yourself and convince yourself to justify your addiction and behaviour. That includes the illusion that you are sick and need it or whatever excuses you use to justify giving in. That includes accepting to weak of a mindset to attempt. So you don’t. That’s another way to convince yourself and justify the abuse.
At the same time away to degrade your personal ability.
That goes for any addiction. Drugs, sugars, food, alcohol. Whatever.
Anyone can quit whatever if one wants to.
Only when it’s abuse is the time one needs to.
In the past when I quit and started again that lasted mostly a week I wanted to quit because the tolerance was so high it barely worked anymore, it was having negative effects and so on. But still I really truly didn’t want to quit I loved weed so much and still do, but this time around I simply have a another mindset like I said, for me now it’s about being in full control of my body and mind, that includes all choices, cravings, addiction, behaviour, way of thinking etc.
I don’t give in anymore and I am training that will power and control over myself.
It’s an internal mind battle that I love now.
I experience addiction as body cravings addiction mostly and it’s the mind that gives in.
It’s about understanding and controlling harmony between body and mind as separate organisms.
I have abused a lot of drugs but always been mostly able to control it. weed stuck with me way more then anything and was always that innocent harmless thing I awarded myself with.that was my justification.
I used amphetamine also a lot and adderall to give me that drive to make things happen. I used to grow weed a lot and I was living a mad hatter lifestyle so you can only imagine. my access to all drugs has never been a problem I just always mostly had some control over myself and will power.
As you know when you quit smoking weed for a week the tolerance will go back to zero let alone months. I used to smoke grams a day without being satisfied, now I only need to smell it to kiss the sky.
Weed is certainly not for everyone and can cause negative mental problems for alot of people especially abused, it’s so individualised. That goes for most of drugs in general.
I’m happy to hear you could detect any negative effects it had on you and had will power to take action accordingly.
If you tend to fall into same habits without control then just don’t do it. If you have the mindset and strong will to train it, train it.
I have the ability to do that so I do.