How's it going Sky Motion?
16 years is about how long I've been a daily user, too. My goal is to treat it like the psychedelic it is. My first highs ever were very psychedelic, and it quickly lost that magic as I became addicted. For the past couple months I've been winding down my supply and once I ran out I was able to to abstain for ten days. I broke my streak last night to celebrate my progress and soothe some body aches from a flu I'm getting over. To my surprise it was extremely psychedelic again! I enjoyed it so much, it's motivating me to follow through with my goal. Just wanted to share my progress with others, I know certain things will resonate.
I use a volcano, which is extremely effective when it's maintained, but as a stoner I often let it get filthy. My friend was an early adopter of the original volcano, that delivered my first psychedelic highs 17 years ago. I think there's really something about it that makes the experience the best it can be. I guess similar to the breakthrough approach with DMT - the volcano just allows you to inhale more vapor and hold it longer, getting more in the body faster. But my lungs and the volcano itself were so caked with res that my relationship with it was no longer efficient like that.
The volcano is meant for dry vaping herb, but for the last couple months I've been winding down with a jar of thc-a diamonds. I think this helped me taper off cannabis in an unexpected way. The concentrate high didnt seem to last as long, I was firing up the volcano more frequently than ever in December. I even threw the jar out my window, letting it get buried in the snow. The cravings were so bad, I seriously debated going out there and digging it up. I scraped my grinders, searched my floor for dusty nugs, revaped the same burnt stuff over and over, eventually just for the placebo. I was making it about 24 hours, but the evenings after dinner when I have nothing critical to do were the hardest. I bought some farm bill flower and indulged for a couple weeks, realizing that the flower high is actually more potent. When that ran out the snow had melted so I went out and found the concentrate jar. Was using that for a couple more weeks.
I've told my friends that I wouldn't be vaping anymore, and helping them find alternatives. The dang concentrate jar was lasting so long, I actually donated the rest of it to my buddy who wanted help making edibles for his wife. It felt good to give the last of it away and help him. Once I was finally relieved of all the THC in my possession the ten day break began. I was even able to turn down an offer to smoke with a friend. Five of those ten days I was sick with the flu, still recovering from it. But I think that helped too, since I was too miserable to vape anything even if I wanted to. I already noticed my dreams increasing the first five days, but with the fever on top of that I was getting crazy dreams for the short periods I could sleep between excruciating throat pain. I almost never get sick; part of me wonders if the film of thc in my lungs was protecting me, and as that thawed away I was suddenly exposed to many more germs.
I wanted to get high pretty bad while I was sick, but I know in the past it just makes it worse and extends my suffering. I feel a little guilty about giving in at the end of my illness, but my body ached so bad and I knew it would help. I've been more productive during the past ten days, and deep cleaning the volcano was something I was working on, preparing to put it in storage or loan it to a friend. Purchasing a little herb to run through the cleaned machine was a nice reward, and a big reminder why it should be kept clean and how amazing cannabis can be. The vapor went down so smooth, at first I was a little disappointed that this strain wasn't very effective or something. But it crept up and ended up being very psychedelic. I was looking at
psychedelic artwork and getting sucked into the imagery, mentally placing myself in scenes that were akin to DMT breakthroughs. Then I watched a documentary on the Webb space telescope, more for the cosmic imagery. None of this is that important lol, but at the time it all felt as significant as a DMT breakthrough does.
Oh, during the first days of my ten day break I noticed my body was releasing stored THC. Almost like circadian rhythm, the same feeling in my eyes would come about without vaping, like clockwork. Especially after physical activity, I'd get a noticeable high. And vaping flower after weeks of diamonds, and after the ten day break, the highs in both cases lasted so long; even the next morning 12 hours later I'd notice I was still groggy. In retrospect, even as a daily user I was still getting subtle psychedelic effects and grogginess chronically. Sorry, I feel like my thoughts on this are a little disorganized, but it's been fun to analyze the changes within myself. Even my bowel movements, appetite, and hydration are affected by cannabis in ways I can't fully describe.
Anyway, I think I'll indulge again tonight since it's the weekend, but this has been a nice journey so far. I want to be able to control my use, but I certainly think it has benefits that I would be a fool to discredit. I just need to treat it with more respect.
